Same old story, it never ends
It feels like the only time I have to "myself" are the times I'm either:
1. On my lunch
2. Before work
3. After work
I don't count me being home alone as "me" time. I'm there because I'm stuck there. I have no way to leave wherever I'm at. I'm not about to ride the damn bus. I haven't been on that crap thing since 9th grade. And considering all the stuff that happens around here and I'm a measly 86 lbs no way to protect myself if something were to happen, I'm not putting myself in any situations.
And yet all I can do is complain about the same damn thing. Break down about the same fucking thing. I've run out of ears to burst. Run out of minds to run dry. It's the same old story every single time:
1. No car
2. No license
And it's easy for everyone out there to just go "get your license." Easy as that huh? First off, I need to be comfortable DRIVING so I can take the test. Meaning I need to DRIVE more often. Then, I need to be able to go take the stupid test. With what car when your own mother has no fucking time for you and you feel as if you're a burden to everyone you know. Every friend I have has a life (job, school, etc). Or they just happen to live out of town.
Yet here I am; 19 year old high school graduate, ASM at a video game store, no license, no car, and have yet to go to college. How successful am I? When everyone I know goes to school. Or has a car. Or something. I feel like I haven't achieved jackshit.
1. On my lunch
2. Before work
3. After work
I don't count me being home alone as "me" time. I'm there because I'm stuck there. I have no way to leave wherever I'm at. I'm not about to ride the damn bus. I haven't been on that crap thing since 9th grade. And considering all the stuff that happens around here and I'm a measly 86 lbs no way to protect myself if something were to happen, I'm not putting myself in any situations.
And yet all I can do is complain about the same damn thing. Break down about the same fucking thing. I've run out of ears to burst. Run out of minds to run dry. It's the same old story every single time:
1. No car
2. No license
And it's easy for everyone out there to just go "get your license." Easy as that huh? First off, I need to be comfortable DRIVING so I can take the test. Meaning I need to DRIVE more often. Then, I need to be able to go take the stupid test. With what car when your own mother has no fucking time for you and you feel as if you're a burden to everyone you know. Every friend I have has a life (job, school, etc). Or they just happen to live out of town.
Yet here I am; 19 year old high school graduate, ASM at a video game store, no license, no car, and have yet to go to college. How successful am I? When everyone I know goes to school. Or has a car. Or something. I feel like I haven't achieved jackshit.