Parting is such sweet sorrow, but not always...
Seeing Mark emotionally broken is hard. It reminds me of the place I have been not only this year, but also in the past. I couldn't just let him deal with it on his own.
Mark is a strong person, but even the strongest person crumbles when they become vulnerable to something as painful as love. Even a strong sense of caring could be considered a mild sense of love.
Love forces us to lower our barriers, pushes us to face the scars that others have left behind. We often refuse to allow ourselves to accept love. Due to the pain it forces out. Yet if we don't allow it to work itself out, we merely become a shell of the potential happiness and joy we are meant to have and become with those we care about.
I have been broken several times. I have faced it with those who care and also alone. Which is why I can look into Mark's eyes and feel exactly how he feels. The love I have for him as a brother reminds me of the scars. Yet this time since I have made the effort to deal with the pain. I can use it as my strength instead of my weakness. It helps me sit there and help Mark to the best of my ability. Yet Mark is like me and I know as some point my help won't be enough and he will have to deal on his own.
Love is precious, but it also is one of the hardest things to experience in perfection. Perfect in the sense that it come full circle. We often give up to soon because of the vulnerable state it brings us too. Our ego's often get in the way as well as our fear of being used only to be tossed aside. Yet we have to deal with these things so that we can have faith in those people we feel love for. Love can not survive without faith or trust. Even through our mistakes as long as we hold onto our faith and trust, Love will hold us together.
I know what I am talking about probably seems like bullshit, but ignorance is bliss. Deep down your heart screams what love is and what is can offer, but we let our mind block out the sound, because it's irrational. Emotions are illogical. If we hold onto that belief we might as well be manufactured by Sony or Microsoft. Because we would be nothing more than a robot.
So many people are afraid of robots taking our place...well then why do we allow ourselves to become the thing we fear most??
Mark is a strong person, but even the strongest person crumbles when they become vulnerable to something as painful as love. Even a strong sense of caring could be considered a mild sense of love.
Love forces us to lower our barriers, pushes us to face the scars that others have left behind. We often refuse to allow ourselves to accept love. Due to the pain it forces out. Yet if we don't allow it to work itself out, we merely become a shell of the potential happiness and joy we are meant to have and become with those we care about.
I have been broken several times. I have faced it with those who care and also alone. Which is why I can look into Mark's eyes and feel exactly how he feels. The love I have for him as a brother reminds me of the scars. Yet this time since I have made the effort to deal with the pain. I can use it as my strength instead of my weakness. It helps me sit there and help Mark to the best of my ability. Yet Mark is like me and I know as some point my help won't be enough and he will have to deal on his own.
Love is precious, but it also is one of the hardest things to experience in perfection. Perfect in the sense that it come full circle. We often give up to soon because of the vulnerable state it brings us too. Our ego's often get in the way as well as our fear of being used only to be tossed aside. Yet we have to deal with these things so that we can have faith in those people we feel love for. Love can not survive without faith or trust. Even through our mistakes as long as we hold onto our faith and trust, Love will hold us together.
I know what I am talking about probably seems like bullshit, but ignorance is bliss. Deep down your heart screams what love is and what is can offer, but we let our mind block out the sound, because it's irrational. Emotions are illogical. If we hold onto that belief we might as well be manufactured by Sony or Microsoft. Because we would be nothing more than a robot.
So many people are afraid of robots taking our place...well then why do we allow ourselves to become the thing we fear most??