A long road ahead...
It's a new year, with new worries, new happiness, and new stresses.
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Neil is going to Italy for a semester to study abroad. I am so happy for him, i've wanted to take him with me to visit my brother in Germany but couldn't. So im glad he's getting this chance. But it's killing me inside. Right now he's at his parents up north and he doesn't leave for Italy until Tuesday. But I already miss him. Miss those hugs that didn't seem to end and looking up to find him staring at me and then smiling. I know he'll come back and things will be just as they were before if not better. But my paranoia gets the better of me at times. Wondering if he'll meet some exotic Italian girl and pull a "French Kiss" on me. (see that movie if you haven't) Then I worry something bad will happen to him while there, he is very naive. But most of all I worry it'll change him so much that when he comes back, I don't figure into his plans anymore. He assures me that when he comes back, he's coming back to me. But I can't help but wonder. I love him so much, and at this point, can't imagine life without him. Or at least I don't want to.
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Going to be very busy the next 3 months. I'm directing one of the New Play Festival plays this semester. It's about a ten minute play. I think I can do alot with it with the right cast. I'm auditioning for the other New Plays and the musical. I really hope I get a part in the musical. I miss singing and dancing. Doing show choir for 4 years was fun. I was told many times that I "come alive" when I get up on stage and sing & dance. One day of auditions down. I have some ideas of who I want to cast, but I have a day left of people to see. Got called back for the musical, but not sure if i'll get a part. Julie seemed hesitant about it all. Guess it's time to amp up my acting and dancing if I want in, which I do. If I get cast in the musical i'll be busy up until mid to late March which Is perfect for me cause Neil gets back the first week of April. It'll make it easier.
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I felt like there was more but now it's all gone. Time to read my play again before the big meeting tomorrow at 8. Blah, back to classes and early mornings again.
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Neil is going to Italy for a semester to study abroad. I am so happy for him, i've wanted to take him with me to visit my brother in Germany but couldn't. So im glad he's getting this chance. But it's killing me inside. Right now he's at his parents up north and he doesn't leave for Italy until Tuesday. But I already miss him. Miss those hugs that didn't seem to end and looking up to find him staring at me and then smiling. I know he'll come back and things will be just as they were before if not better. But my paranoia gets the better of me at times. Wondering if he'll meet some exotic Italian girl and pull a "French Kiss" on me. (see that movie if you haven't) Then I worry something bad will happen to him while there, he is very naive. But most of all I worry it'll change him so much that when he comes back, I don't figure into his plans anymore. He assures me that when he comes back, he's coming back to me. But I can't help but wonder. I love him so much, and at this point, can't imagine life without him. Or at least I don't want to.
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Going to be very busy the next 3 months. I'm directing one of the New Play Festival plays this semester. It's about a ten minute play. I think I can do alot with it with the right cast. I'm auditioning for the other New Plays and the musical. I really hope I get a part in the musical. I miss singing and dancing. Doing show choir for 4 years was fun. I was told many times that I "come alive" when I get up on stage and sing & dance. One day of auditions down. I have some ideas of who I want to cast, but I have a day left of people to see. Got called back for the musical, but not sure if i'll get a part. Julie seemed hesitant about it all. Guess it's time to amp up my acting and dancing if I want in, which I do. If I get cast in the musical i'll be busy up until mid to late March which Is perfect for me cause Neil gets back the first week of April. It'll make it easier.
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I felt like there was more but now it's all gone. Time to read my play again before the big meeting tomorrow at 8. Blah, back to classes and early mornings again.