::sighs::
We went to Joey's house before the funeral. I about lost it when they were going through his sketchpad.
They put a self portrait he'd done on the cover to the program.
The funeral was sad. Not depressing, but sad. Stacy, a girl i'd never met before but heard too many rumors about, was very nice and very personal. She spoke my name as though she'd known me for years. It was difficult to listen to her talk about Joey. They had not only been brother and sister, but
He was a very good uncle to her daughter.
I cried when his dad was talking. His words stuck with me, and my heart sinks a little every time i think about it. Some of those words were quite cliche, but it was entirely different hearing them from him becuase you KNOW they were straight from his breaking heart.
"You know, kids, i really hate to say something like this now, but ... Don't drink and drive. It will kill your parents."
"And parents, don't ever... EVER pass up an oppurtunity to hug your children."
I saw his picture, and could do nothing but cover my mouth and try and swallow the apples forming in my throat.
The only man that could ever pull off the puppy dog eyed look, and without even trying. And no one will ever see those eyes again.
It was like a highschool reunion, only everyone was crying. Poeple i hadn't talked to since middle let alone high school were coming up to me and making idle conversation. It was surreal. Like a dream, where poeple you don't normally talk to, and probably never would have talked to, are talking to you, not viceversa. I felt like... i dunno. Like i was better than all these poeple who had shunned me becuase i wasn't good enough to be their friend all those years ago. And now i met their standards, but they didn't meet mine. It was odd.
Erin showed up. It was interesting seeing her again. It looks like she's running near a wrong crowd. She hasn't changed all that much. She reminisced of times we had in 8th grade, things i'd completely forgotten about, and was disturbed at how randomly psychotic i used to be. So very different. There's such a fine line between cute and crazy. I hopped back and forth all the time then. I remember Paul saying he could never date me becuase i was too unstable. I believe him now.
His birthday was this month. Doh.
I have so many forms to fill out, and i have to brush up on my test skills for my placement testing.
My sister has finally been grounded until the house and her room are clean. Anyone who has seen her room knows what a feat this is. She's got new furniture. She's breaking out all those boxes of old shit and throwing things away. I haven't seen her throw things away since we moved here some 10 years ago. Cool.
I'm now going through the 6s and 7s I haven't done yet with Bs on DDR. I can get through 8s with Ds or Cs. i don't have enough energry to get through a 9 just yet.
I'm forever working on the folio site. I'm got a couple of Taurus and Pisces pics that need work, and a couple of commissions that need to be scanned or completed.
I like Utada Hikaru's dancepop.
It disturbs me that poeple think that "Fly Me To the Moon" is original to Evangelion. God damnit, poeple! Don't forget you're american! yeesh.
Does anyone remember when Thanksgiving is? I really need to know, and so few poeple actually answer my questions on LJ. Help me out here, poeple.
Well, i'm going to try and nap, but i probably won't.
They put a self portrait he'd done on the cover to the program.
The funeral was sad. Not depressing, but sad. Stacy, a girl i'd never met before but heard too many rumors about, was very nice and very personal. She spoke my name as though she'd known me for years. It was difficult to listen to her talk about Joey. They had not only been brother and sister, but
He was a very good uncle to her daughter.
I cried when his dad was talking. His words stuck with me, and my heart sinks a little every time i think about it. Some of those words were quite cliche, but it was entirely different hearing them from him becuase you KNOW they were straight from his breaking heart.
"You know, kids, i really hate to say something like this now, but ... Don't drink and drive. It will kill your parents."
"And parents, don't ever... EVER pass up an oppurtunity to hug your children."
I saw his picture, and could do nothing but cover my mouth and try and swallow the apples forming in my throat.
The only man that could ever pull off the puppy dog eyed look, and without even trying. And no one will ever see those eyes again.
It was like a highschool reunion, only everyone was crying. Poeple i hadn't talked to since middle let alone high school were coming up to me and making idle conversation. It was surreal. Like a dream, where poeple you don't normally talk to, and probably never would have talked to, are talking to you, not viceversa. I felt like... i dunno. Like i was better than all these poeple who had shunned me becuase i wasn't good enough to be their friend all those years ago. And now i met their standards, but they didn't meet mine. It was odd.
Erin showed up. It was interesting seeing her again. It looks like she's running near a wrong crowd. She hasn't changed all that much. She reminisced of times we had in 8th grade, things i'd completely forgotten about, and was disturbed at how randomly psychotic i used to be. So very different. There's such a fine line between cute and crazy. I hopped back and forth all the time then. I remember Paul saying he could never date me becuase i was too unstable. I believe him now.
His birthday was this month. Doh.
I have so many forms to fill out, and i have to brush up on my test skills for my placement testing.
My sister has finally been grounded until the house and her room are clean. Anyone who has seen her room knows what a feat this is. She's got new furniture. She's breaking out all those boxes of old shit and throwing things away. I haven't seen her throw things away since we moved here some 10 years ago. Cool.
I'm now going through the 6s and 7s I haven't done yet with Bs on DDR. I can get through 8s with Ds or Cs. i don't have enough energry to get through a 9 just yet.
I'm forever working on the folio site. I'm got a couple of Taurus and Pisces pics that need work, and a couple of commissions that need to be scanned or completed.
I like Utada Hikaru's dancepop.
It disturbs me that poeple think that "Fly Me To the Moon" is original to Evangelion. God damnit, poeple! Don't forget you're american! yeesh.
Does anyone remember when Thanksgiving is? I really need to know, and so few poeple actually answer my questions on LJ. Help me out here, poeple.
Well, i'm going to try and nap, but i probably won't.