Ego punch rant time.
sometimes i forget that i am i small, and i am female, and i look really young and therefore, i will never be taken seriously.
I look like a freshman in highschool.
I don't look like i have 10 years experience in the art biz. I don't look like i have a bachelor's in graphic design. I don't look like i model for alt pinup. No, i don't look like i've been writing music for nearly 20 years. Or that i've written books and stories that no one will ever read. Or that i've painted more paintings than they've had dreams in their lifetimes.
So i have a point and shoot camera. That doesn't mean i don't know what i'm doing. I've been studying composition for about 10 years, and i've been taking serious pictures of people for about 5 years. I've been studying photography really hard lately. Just because i don't have lights and boxes, just because i don't walk around with a lightguage in my pocket, because i don't have an SLR around my neck, doesn't mean i can't take good pictures. In fact, i know people with totally awesome cameras take shit pictures, and people with shit cameras take awesome pictures. It has nothing to do with SKILL.
Don't stand over my shoulder and give my model direction when i know what the hell i'm trying to do. Shut the hell up and get out of my shot. Quit back seat driving.
Okay. End rant.
You know, since Stein delivered that blow to my ego, i dunno if it's gonna come back. I think he really broke it.
I will never be a professional anything. A professional illustrator, a professional photographer, a professional model, a professional designer... i'll always fall short.
I look like a freshman in highschool.
I don't look like i have 10 years experience in the art biz. I don't look like i have a bachelor's in graphic design. I don't look like i model for alt pinup. No, i don't look like i've been writing music for nearly 20 years. Or that i've written books and stories that no one will ever read. Or that i've painted more paintings than they've had dreams in their lifetimes.
So i have a point and shoot camera. That doesn't mean i don't know what i'm doing. I've been studying composition for about 10 years, and i've been taking serious pictures of people for about 5 years. I've been studying photography really hard lately. Just because i don't have lights and boxes, just because i don't walk around with a lightguage in my pocket, because i don't have an SLR around my neck, doesn't mean i can't take good pictures. In fact, i know people with totally awesome cameras take shit pictures, and people with shit cameras take awesome pictures. It has nothing to do with SKILL.
Don't stand over my shoulder and give my model direction when i know what the hell i'm trying to do. Shut the hell up and get out of my shot. Quit back seat driving.
Okay. End rant.
You know, since Stein delivered that blow to my ego, i dunno if it's gonna come back. I think he really broke it.
I will never be a professional anything. A professional illustrator, a professional photographer, a professional model, a professional designer... i'll always fall short.