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Learning to play Go is difficult. Luckily, I have a strong streak of stubbornness and a genuine desire to learn the game, or I would've thrown my hands in the air and quit.
It's almost funny how hard it can be for me, though.
Playing with another person makes me feel like a moron. I just don't know what to do, and my mind just blanks out when I get frustrated. Of course, this only serves to frustrate me more, thereby making it worse and worse. When you already have deep-rooted anxieties about being stupid, and an intense fear that you are not as intelligent as everyone else around you, things like that tend to make things more difficult than they should be...
But that is one of the reasons I'd really like to persevere. If I can continue to learn, despite my fears, it means that I'm not being controlled by an unreasonable anxiety. That's important.
It's almost funny how hard it can be for me, though.
Playing with another person makes me feel like a moron. I just don't know what to do, and my mind just blanks out when I get frustrated. Of course, this only serves to frustrate me more, thereby making it worse and worse. When you already have deep-rooted anxieties about being stupid, and an intense fear that you are not as intelligent as everyone else around you, things like that tend to make things more difficult than they should be...
But that is one of the reasons I'd really like to persevere. If I can continue to learn, despite my fears, it means that I'm not being controlled by an unreasonable anxiety. That's important.