damn

[psychomiyavist]

livejournal has changed a lot since the last time i was here lol i didn't approve of no ads on my page wtf. bahh. well yeah no one reads this anymore so this note is kinda just for myself i guess. idk i suppose i kinda lost interest in writing about my life on this thing . idk. has this ever happened to anyone else? i remember the days when

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[anonymous]

I read it from time to time whenever u actually have one in public, just because we decided not to be friends nomore -i guess we decided idk =[- doesnt mean i lost intrest in ur life since u helped shape mines . As i lay here on my bed i realize that maybe everything that has happen was actually for the best for both of us :) your with your lovely bear that i hope is making you very happy, u deserve it.

I wish things couldve been diffrent, but im pretty sure its already too late for u to even care about some ol schmuck. All i can really do is look back at all my memories of us . Im sorry for everything, i never wish to do any harm.

This all so stupid i honestly dont know what im trying to accomplish by sending this so if u do decide to ignore just delete it so i know , and i wont bother u anymore

[psychomiyavist]

hmm is this who i think it is

[chino98]

I could explain everything to you, but honestly i dont think itll much of a diffrence now anyways. Regardless of everything that has happened between us, i do regret everyhing that eventually lead to us just not speaking to eachother. I would like to change that, pero in my opinion i think itll complicate many, many things in our lives. I too am tired of relationships, and honestly what i hate most about it is the feeling that i actually think i need her to be happy. I know i dont really need her, i know that its just that i dont want to be alone. Everyones always so busy with things i just dont know, u may have lost one other friend but i lost everyone. Even guy friends, its ridiculous

[psychomiyavist]

lol its not like im gonna go and live there permanently, im just gonna be there for the fall semester studying abroad :) its gonna be really scary, but i really want to do it before i graduate since its kinda a once in a lifetime opportunity for me. i mean, come on, how many opportunities will i have to live in another country for more than a couple weeks? and europe at that!? pshh chances are slim to none aha. i was planning on going with a friend, but sadly she didn't get in :( so im gonna be going alone... with other students of course but idk them.. it scares me but at the same time im excited. i just hope the other people going are cool and not complete douchebags... cuz that would really, reallyy suck :/
i still consider you a friend too even though we dont talk, so dont worry about it :) you impacted my life and made me more comfortable with myself in some ways, and of speaking publicly, and thats something im never gonna forget. i have you to thank for "breaking me out of my shell" in a sense :p

[chino98]

Yes. Youre right this is a once in a life time opportunity for alot of people. But certainly not for you, i dont mean it in a bad way :) dude your super bright -and coincidently ur name is light- im pretty sure youll be able to live whereever and visit what ever country u want :) and yes i do think you should take it and go. Itll be great, and even if it is just you alone, i believe itll be just what your searching for. Hell you might even find out even more about yourself and who you are. Lifes funny like that. Dont be nervous about being alone, like you said its just a few weeks. That boy marco aint going no where that foo finna be here behaving so all is well - or else (brings out whip)-

When, not if, make sure u live it to the fullest and get that whole italian exp. Dont just stay in your rome. Go out dancing, roam the city, enjoy it cuz who knows when youll be back ;) but im sure you will.

Cool idea, burry something there, n promise yourself youll dig it out the next time you go ;) kinda like a promise to urself to return .