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Tonight I went to Chelsea's birthday party. Everyone's so cute, I don't get it. People swam, but I didn't because it was chilly as fuck. We watched Degrassi and it ruled, because Degrassi's amazing allathetime. It's kind of weird hanging out with a group of silly, loud girls. No one I regularly hang out with is as ridiculously loud as the ones I saw tonight. It was overwhelming, but it's also kind of refreshing.
People have been telling me that this year at Deering we're going to have "coaching groups". We'll be placed 'randomly' in groups of twelve or so people and have to meet every fucking Wednesday for lunch and talk to our groups about our problems. Are you shitting me? Seriously. Are you fucking shitting me? They're supposedly MANDATORY but there's no motherfucking way anyone's going to go. Oooh, scary. Yer gonna give me a detention? Because I didn't waste my only free time all day spilling my guts to dumb kids who I don't even know? And you ask me why I want to drop out... Jesus. You know why I want to drop out? Because the school system is a fucking joke and pretending to care about my problems, which basically revolve around me hating school, isn't going to put me in a healthier enviornment. TOOLS.
I want to be closer to you. To most people. I feel like I don't have anyone who I tell everything to or who I know a lot about. Not even the people I used to feel that way with. Especially the people I used to feel that way with. I miss it. A lot. I probably like you and think you're really cool. Call me up.