Newport News wishes *rant-ish* you've been forwarned.

[psychomarik]

I've been home since Sunday, and every day it's been the same thing. Wake up, take a shower, do nothing, eat nothing till dinner, wait for Kya to get online or call me, then go to bed around 3/4am and then wake up again to repeat the cycle again the next day. It sucks here. No one ever wants to do anything. No one really even wants to contact me, so why did I come back? Shit, I could have stayed at the dorm.I kinda wish I had stayed in Newport. At least there are people there who want to do things with me. Kya's there and so are my russian friends. I was just there last night tho. And even though I got to see Kya for the first time in a week, I only saw him for three hours. The rest of the time I was sleeping. and I had to come home for NO REASON. I even tried to bargan my way into staying down there and my father said I had to come back. And when I got home, know what I did? Sat here and wonderd why I just didn't stay anyway. I hate to disobey my parents, but it's not like they really needed me around today. All I want is to move out of this house and be with Kya. It's ridiculous maybe, but that would be all I would need. I practically lived with him for the last two months when I was at ODU (I transfered back to JTCC). I hate that college campus so much.... >_> but back to the point. I miss him. Bottom line. I guess that's what I'm trying to say.
Now that I've talked to two other people about this issue, I still feel like I did when I first started writing this, but a little better. Now I have plans for what January is going to hold. Moving out and telling the truth... after 8 and a half months I still haven't actually said that I have a boyfriend. It was easier not to! I feel bad, believe me, I don't want to lie to my parents, but some things are better left as secrets for a time longer. I'm sorry mom and dad...