Do I really matter?

[psychoman2079]

28 days until I leave and start a new chapter in my life. I go from a life of leisure to boot camp in Cape May, New Jersey. After that I go to California. Life is just going to change so rapidly and I wonder if I'll be able to handle it. Can I really face the real world let alone 2 months of drill sgts in my face? I don't know and just the fact that nobody really seems to care that I'm leaving makes it so much worst on me. Just makes me feel like no one will care when i'm gone. Maybe they won't care, maybe everyone is just waiting for me to leave so that their lives can be better. ugh I can't think my mind is too frazzled.

I have fallen from grace, and my ashes are scattered
No longer of passion and flesh
My flame is alive, though my wings have been shattered
They lay my body to rest

My spirit is breathing, my senses are pure
Like reincarnation, my soul will endure

Back on earth...
The spirit, it never lets go

Like fountains of sorrow, the faces are crying
I'm witnessing all of their pain
Death is so final, for only the living
The spirit will always remain

Bury me deep, just to cover my sins
My soul is redeemed, as the journey begins

Back on earth (you feel me)
Back on earth (reveal me)
Back on earth, the spirit it never lets go

Another dimension, a river of life
I'm twisting, I'm turning, my soul is in flight

Back on earth (you feel me)
Back on earth (reveal me)
Back on earth (still breathing)
Back on earth (reliving)