Why aren't I sleeping?
I know it's pathetic, but it's hard to go a week without seeing him. I do practically nothing but think about him and wonder how he is and what will happen when we get back from break. We're not even dating, for Christ's sake.
Yet. I'm very sure about the yet.
Spring Break could not have come at a worse time. After last week, and Disneyland, and V for Vendetta, now I just have to wait... I am so not good at waiting. No patience whatsoever.
I had a genius idea that solves several problems at once for the summer. I have to have a job - I should really be working now, but that's not the smartest idea, all things considered - so my thought is that I should work over the summer at Bass Lake. Number one, I would thereby be guaranteed a job since they need summer workers for sure at the several restaurants on the lake, whereas I worry that Chili's might not take me back just for two months. Number two, my family will be at the lake much more than the Park, so I'd get to see them more. (Gina, sadly, not as much - we'd have to work on that.) Number three, and it's sad that I've thought of this, but number three, Bass Lake is much closer to the Bay Area than NP is. I'm so ahead of myself it's scary, but I can't help it, to a certain degree. I'm 90% convinced this is going to happen, and soon, and I can't help factoring it into my plans. Of course, my mom is very opposed to my Bass Lake idea, but can't really articulate a reason why. I'm going to work on that. She also doesn't know about the Kevin angle - I figure they don't need to know about anything more than friendship between me and him until that anything more is officially there. So maybe when she realizes that part of it, she'll think differently. I doubt it - I think my best chance is to force her to say, "I don't want you to just because I don't want you to, and I don't really have a good reason why not." Then I have her.
But Kevin is really my focus right now. Sad but true. I didn't mean to do it, but I've become very wrapped up in this boy.
Not such a bad thing, since this is actually moving in a forward direction. But continuing the movement from half a state away...
Is it Sunday yet???
Is it really pathetic that I can't enjoy my break because of this?????
Yet. I'm very sure about the yet.
Spring Break could not have come at a worse time. After last week, and Disneyland, and V for Vendetta, now I just have to wait... I am so not good at waiting. No patience whatsoever.
I had a genius idea that solves several problems at once for the summer. I have to have a job - I should really be working now, but that's not the smartest idea, all things considered - so my thought is that I should work over the summer at Bass Lake. Number one, I would thereby be guaranteed a job since they need summer workers for sure at the several restaurants on the lake, whereas I worry that Chili's might not take me back just for two months. Number two, my family will be at the lake much more than the Park, so I'd get to see them more. (Gina, sadly, not as much - we'd have to work on that.) Number three, and it's sad that I've thought of this, but number three, Bass Lake is much closer to the Bay Area than NP is. I'm so ahead of myself it's scary, but I can't help it, to a certain degree. I'm 90% convinced this is going to happen, and soon, and I can't help factoring it into my plans. Of course, my mom is very opposed to my Bass Lake idea, but can't really articulate a reason why. I'm going to work on that. She also doesn't know about the Kevin angle - I figure they don't need to know about anything more than friendship between me and him until that anything more is officially there. So maybe when she realizes that part of it, she'll think differently. I doubt it - I think my best chance is to force her to say, "I don't want you to just because I don't want you to, and I don't really have a good reason why not." Then I have her.
But Kevin is really my focus right now. Sad but true. I didn't mean to do it, but I've become very wrapped up in this boy.
Not such a bad thing, since this is actually moving in a forward direction. But continuing the movement from half a state away...
Is it Sunday yet???
Is it really pathetic that I can't enjoy my break because of this?????