Afraid

[psychokitten7]

I feel like I'm torn. One day I think one thing, the next another all together. I get to a point where I've made my mind up, decided what needs to be done, and I feel great about it for a few minutes, and then doubt creeps in. All that I'll lose is suddenly so important again.

I can't lose him, but I can't lose me.

Lenny Kravitz "Can't Get My Mind Off You"
Life is just a lonely highway
I'm out here on the open road
I'm old enough to see behind me
But young enough to feel my soul
I don't wanna lose you baby
And I don't wanna be alone
Don't wanna live my days without you
But for now I've got to be without you
I've got a pocket full of money
And pocket full of keys that have no bounds
But then I think of lovin'
And I just can't get you off of my mind
Babe can't you see
That this is killing me
I don't want to push you baby
And I don't want you to be told
It's just that I can't breathe without you
Feel like I'm gonna lose control
I've got a pocket full of money oh yes I do
And a pocket full of keys that have no bounds
But when it comes to lovin'
I just can't get you off of my mind
Am I a fool to think that there's a little hope tell me baby
What are the rules the reasons and the do's and don'ts
Tell me baby tell me baby
What do you feel inside?
I've got a pocket full of money
And a pocket full of keys that have no bounds oh yeah
But when it comes down to lovin'
I just can't get you off of my mind
I just can't get you off of my mind

What a decision ... what a heartbreak.

in His love,
~Lisa