here come the tears....
well i have been working the last couple weeks at mcdonalds.. im starting to like it... my favorite person is abel and i found out today he is sixteen... i thought he was 20... well i dont li ke working everyday, but i guess ill put up with it for a month like jenny horvath says and then ask for days off... well i feel like im sorta of losing my friends and left out i guess.. but its no ones fault...
today anthonys brother rob came into my work, i saw him and tears came to my eyes when i said hi and asked where anthony was... cant he see that im sorry? and that im hurt because he wont talk to me? i started crying on my break for numerous reasons and one reason is that i miss anthony so much.. he wont call me back and wont even talk to me and its tearing me apart inside... god if only he knew how much i love him
anohter reason is today jose the mexican from firehouse told me i was fat... he apologized many times ... but i swore at him in spanish and told him to go fuck his mother and that i wasnt his friend anymore.. then i threw away my dinner. im not going to eat anymore.. i want to be skinny like i was.. im just fat and ugly now...
i dont get it i really dont... kevin was staring at me at the dance and christina asked me if i lik ed him.. and i was li ke no thats adriennes ex ya know? and then adrienne asked me if i wanted to dance with him and im like umm no i wouldnt do that to you... and shes like kevin jessica wants to dance with you! so jenny when you said "thats adriennes ex" to me, it was adriennes idea for him to dance with me... then adrienne emailed me and told me that he had my screen name, and that she didnt care if i went out with him...i told her that i didnt want to hurt her, and she said she didnt care and told me to get to know him! i dont know what to do...
all i can think about is anthony, i cant stand it anymore... i am gonna cry myself to sleep tonight.. i wonder if he even cares at all.... or even knows how i feel.i want to talk to him on the phone again, i want to be with him again, i want to argue with him again, i want to be called a twat cunt sluuuuuuut by him again, oh i miss him so much
today anthonys brother rob came into my work, i saw him and tears came to my eyes when i said hi and asked where anthony was... cant he see that im sorry? and that im hurt because he wont talk to me? i started crying on my break for numerous reasons and one reason is that i miss anthony so much.. he wont call me back and wont even talk to me and its tearing me apart inside... god if only he knew how much i love him
anohter reason is today jose the mexican from firehouse told me i was fat... he apologized many times ... but i swore at him in spanish and told him to go fuck his mother and that i wasnt his friend anymore.. then i threw away my dinner. im not going to eat anymore.. i want to be skinny like i was.. im just fat and ugly now...
i dont get it i really dont... kevin was staring at me at the dance and christina asked me if i lik ed him.. and i was li ke no thats adriennes ex ya know? and then adrienne asked me if i wanted to dance with him and im like umm no i wouldnt do that to you... and shes like kevin jessica wants to dance with you! so jenny when you said "thats adriennes ex" to me, it was adriennes idea for him to dance with me... then adrienne emailed me and told me that he had my screen name, and that she didnt care if i went out with him...i told her that i didnt want to hurt her, and she said she didnt care and told me to get to know him! i dont know what to do...
all i can think about is anthony, i cant stand it anymore... i am gonna cry myself to sleep tonight.. i wonder if he even cares at all.... or even knows how i feel.i want to talk to him on the phone again, i want to be with him again, i want to argue with him again, i want to be called a twat cunt sluuuuuuut by him again, oh i miss him so much