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All through high school i had friends that would forget about me, and make me feel like a complete loser because i wasnt good enough for them to remember, and ever since then i just kept close with the friends that didnt do that, but then one did and now it feels like another is going to. and to top it all off, i cant find someone to care about me, i find all these guys and it seems like they would care, but in the end they dont. am i not good enough to fucking care about? to worry about? im glad i have steph as a friend, she understands everything, i guess because shes a girl too, and we are both emotional wrecks. i try my hardest not to be, but when i feel forgotten, it makes me cry like im a little kid, and when a friend shrugs that off, and then somehow makes me feel bad because im upset, makes me feel ten times worse. its lonely when no one trys to understand you. i wish i had someone to call me and ask me how my day was. or even after i ask them how theres was for them to ask back. i think i care too much about people too easily and i end up being the only one who cares. lol, i am no one who cares too much about everyone. sucks =*( and it sucks even more that i have to get over it otherwise i wont have a friend. but oh well, guess its worth it, right?! am i psycho? god i hope not.