Writer's Block: Life With ADHD

Sep 14, 2008 11:32

Please excuse any weirdly-worded sentences or typos - I'm exhausted.

This topic has actually been on my mind a lot lately. I was diagnosed in first grade, and started medication in second grade. It's affected me quite a bit, but that's not surprising... any kind of mental/neurological disorder affects their behavior and the way they function. People associate me with occasionally being hyper and crazy, and that's pretty much what "hyperactivity" is. I can get easily frustrated over schoolwork at times, which affects how well I do on those assignments. I even think that my experiences growing up affected how I behave in class to this very day. When I was started school, I was an insane child - running around, doing everything except what I was supposed to do (people thought it was cute, until I got to first grade and actually had to do real work). I was the "bad" student, never paying attention. When I started medication, from what I can remember, I became a lot more quiet, subdued even. Magically, I was a "good" student. My teachers liked me, said I was a pleasure to have in class. I think I made this connection subconsciously, because even though I don't recall planning this out, to this day, as soon as class begins, getting me to talk much is extremely difficult. I raised my hand in a class this past week and gave my point of view on something (gasp!), and then my hands were shaking for about five minutes afterward. It's kind of funny, because all through classes I'm a quiet little mouse, and then when I have to give an oral presentation or something, BAM I'm usually my perky, talkative self (well, except those couple times I had breakdowns... but that's another story entirely). I think that shows I'm not shy. My subconscious probably just associated being quiet and reserved with being a good student, because of the reactions I got after I started my medication.

That brings me to another topic that makes my brain buzz - medication. It's freaking scary. I think a big part of me deciding against being a neurologist is the whole perscribing medication thing. It can really affect the way a person acts, thinks, feels, etc. I get worired about my own medication on occasion, but I don't feel like getting into that.

I'm hungry, so I don't feel like typing anymore. The end.

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