Stupidity..
I am a true idiot, you know that? Incredibly true idiot. I ruined my life basically. Because of a stupid choice I did. I hate myself. I hate myself more than any possible thing in this entire world. I guess its true, I am a hopless cause. Always have been, always will be. It hurts to know that I've ruined my life. I've lost the only thing I ever cared, ever hoped for. The only thing that filled my missing space. The hole in me, filled. Now, its empty. Because I, have chosen the wrong path. The wrong thing to say. My stupidy is showing. It shows all the time, I just do not notice it. I was hoping to be able to put something nice in sweet in my journal for when I update it but I guess not. My life was great yesterday. I hadn't ruined it yet. But I ruined it today. Not but a few moments ago. I should be punished, that I should. I should punish myself. I believe I will as well. Not quite sure how but I will punish myself. For my stupidity. Possibly it will teach me for future referance not to do this again. Maybe just maybe. I wont be as stupis as I am now. Its just hard to lose the only thing you've ever wanted. Ever needed. *sigh* Thats all for now. Just remember. Don't screw up like I did. I lost all i've ever had. The only thing that meant things to me.
[-Michelle-] *aka* [-Screw.Up-]