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Its been a while. I know I said id be trying to write everyday. but you know its really hard to do that for me. I feel shitty alot of the time. And Im tired of whining on LJ about it. I feel pretty okay today. definitely not happy. but not unbearabley deppressed either. Im spending the night with Amanda tonite. She and Wes are living at Johnnys now. And of Course Sherri and the baby too. Ie missed our little family in norfolk. And the person I miss most isnt here..... and I guess its a good thing that hes not. I think about him...alot. I think about the good times alot. The way things used to be before his wife came back. How everyone in the apartment was a family. How laughing made all the little problems just dissapear. How easy it was to be myself when I was on my own. Its hard living back with my mom. Its hard having to ask to do things, and act like...a child agsin. At least thats the way it feels. I dont know I missed mom..I did... but I still feel out of place. Thins with school are going well. Things are moving along quite nicely. Went shopping for my dorm the other night. It was excitng and very overwhelming.
Things with Trinity are confusing. Things wit Brandon are confusing...
I dunno sometimes I feel like the only thing guys are good at.... is dissapearing.
Well thats all for now. Im tired....
Things with Trinity are confusing. Things wit Brandon are confusing...
I dunno sometimes I feel like the only thing guys are good at.... is dissapearing.
Well thats all for now. Im tired....