phew i did it!
i did it, i lead the IPN group without dying of anxiety.
my IPN group preceptor called this am to tell me that she wasnt going to be able to make it to the meeting, so Im thinkin:ok no group today--wrong. she said that she couldnt be there but that i could go ahead and lead the group! what? go from passive observer to group leader?!
well I did it and i think for my first time it went pretty well. i was less anxious once it got underway than i thought i might be. Im glad that i have learned to become comfortable with silence, not that there was a whole lot of silence but there were a few long pauses.
i came up with some good topics to discuss and im proud of that. to my surprise during the session i also thought of some other topics that i could lead a discussion on in the future--crazy, i was all scared to do it in the first place and now im planning the next time i get to do it, cool.
i do feel a little guilty and evil though because when i got home all i wanted was a nice glass of wine, i deserve it and it'll help me calm my risidual meeting anxiety...man thats kinda bad, oh well.
my IPN group preceptor called this am to tell me that she wasnt going to be able to make it to the meeting, so Im thinkin:ok no group today--wrong. she said that she couldnt be there but that i could go ahead and lead the group! what? go from passive observer to group leader?!
well I did it and i think for my first time it went pretty well. i was less anxious once it got underway than i thought i might be. Im glad that i have learned to become comfortable with silence, not that there was a whole lot of silence but there were a few long pauses.
i came up with some good topics to discuss and im proud of that. to my surprise during the session i also thought of some other topics that i could lead a discussion on in the future--crazy, i was all scared to do it in the first place and now im planning the next time i get to do it, cool.
i do feel a little guilty and evil though because when i got home all i wanted was a nice glass of wine, i deserve it and it'll help me calm my risidual meeting anxiety...man thats kinda bad, oh well.