Another Me...
I have known about this for a long time now, but never really thought about it until I was doing this group project in my literature class.
I'm a different person at college.
I'm not talking schizo multi personality thing, just my whole demeanor is different. If any of you went to class with me one day, you would see someone different.
I suppose in High School, since it was such a huge part of life then I didn't give the same "attention" I do in college. Even now though I'm a different person than when I was at High School as most people should be. The maturing process that is High School should have rounded out your personality and helped you learn to be you. However there are those that haven't changed at all since High School and it isn't always a good thing.
Anyway, outside of class (and in recent years) I'm far more upbeat, optimistic, and high on life. I big change from the moody, depressed person I used to be. I'm social and will talk to most anyone with no problem. In class however, I'm silent, I rarely smile, I don't communicate with those around me. I'm not saying I focus and hang on every word the teacher says, but I sort of retreat inside of myself. Not because of boredom or some social anxiety, I just don't care to know most of the people around me.
I've been in school for a long time, longer than most of my peers who have already finished with their Bachelor degree. Most of the people around me are younger or much older and the only real common ground some of us share are the fact that we are students. Not something I'm necessarily proud of because I'm behind said peers. (That is not a statement of quitting) In all the years I've been in school I have made only one friend. A single friend who knew the school me and still wanted to hang out. It all started with a comment about the patches on my bag and then later lunch to celebrate failing a test and to this day Kelly and I still talk and hang out. I vacationed at her place just last August and had a wonderful time, but even then it wasn't until when she was about to leave that she started to know the real me and not the school me.
I mean I see it around me, a lot of people go to class to socialize, but I'm not there to make friends, I'm there to learn the only problem is they insist on teaching me stuff I already know. Granted haveing a friend in the class might make it go by faster, but then you risk losing what the teacher is telling you and losing a grade. I have however started to open up just a little bit in my Aquatic Fitness class, mostly cause that isn't a place where your meant to learn and it is meant to be a social enviroment.
I don't know though... Just something I was thinking about...
~syko
I'm a different person at college.
I'm not talking schizo multi personality thing, just my whole demeanor is different. If any of you went to class with me one day, you would see someone different.
I suppose in High School, since it was such a huge part of life then I didn't give the same "attention" I do in college. Even now though I'm a different person than when I was at High School as most people should be. The maturing process that is High School should have rounded out your personality and helped you learn to be you. However there are those that haven't changed at all since High School and it isn't always a good thing.
Anyway, outside of class (and in recent years) I'm far more upbeat, optimistic, and high on life. I big change from the moody, depressed person I used to be. I'm social and will talk to most anyone with no problem. In class however, I'm silent, I rarely smile, I don't communicate with those around me. I'm not saying I focus and hang on every word the teacher says, but I sort of retreat inside of myself. Not because of boredom or some social anxiety, I just don't care to know most of the people around me.
I've been in school for a long time, longer than most of my peers who have already finished with their Bachelor degree. Most of the people around me are younger or much older and the only real common ground some of us share are the fact that we are students. Not something I'm necessarily proud of because I'm behind said peers. (That is not a statement of quitting) In all the years I've been in school I have made only one friend. A single friend who knew the school me and still wanted to hang out. It all started with a comment about the patches on my bag and then later lunch to celebrate failing a test and to this day Kelly and I still talk and hang out. I vacationed at her place just last August and had a wonderful time, but even then it wasn't until when she was about to leave that she started to know the real me and not the school me.
I mean I see it around me, a lot of people go to class to socialize, but I'm not there to make friends, I'm there to learn the only problem is they insist on teaching me stuff I already know. Granted haveing a friend in the class might make it go by faster, but then you risk losing what the teacher is telling you and losing a grade. I have however started to open up just a little bit in my Aquatic Fitness class, mostly cause that isn't a place where your meant to learn and it is meant to be a social enviroment.
I don't know though... Just something I was thinking about...
~syko