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[psycho_pain]

well im very confused at the moment....all my emotions came to me at once and now they're gone i just figured out bout an hour ago that my dads been cheating on my mom for 4 months i saw my dad fell asleep with the light on so i go take his glasses off and tuck him in and take the fone from his hand...as i press the button to turn his fone off theres a mesg that he gets and its from some lady...so i decide to read it it sez ilu godd night...so im like ok fine shes prob a close friend of his den i leave that mesg and i see 154 mesgs from her and i read dem they're like ilu ur my angel ur so sweet and other shit....and i see yes I REALLY DO LOVE YOU meaning my dad had asked her if she loves him....thats wen it just got to me...so i run downstairs and wake my mom up and tell her i found sum interesting mesgs on his fone and i read dem to her...and she takes it calmly...so i go upstairs and i start typing the mesgs she sent to him and i just start breakin down...how could he do this...so i go outside have a cigarette i see the lights turn on in my dads room and i go in...and i see my mom talkin to him...and i start yellin at his and shes like calm down...so i go outside have another cigarette and i come inside with a baseball bat ready to beat his ass to death...my mom sees the bat and rips it out of my hands...and threatened him not to fall asleep or ill kill him in his sleep....and more shit went on so i needed comfort so i call my grandfather in poland and tell him wtf is goin on...he tells me evrytin is gun be fine and i read evry single txt to him and he sed hell talk to that bitch and hell talk to my dad and he has a choice of leaving me and not bein accepted back in poland or stayin with me(honestly i just want him out of my lyfe)
newayz tells me to go back to sleep...so my dad locks himself in the basement so i wont kill him...and now im typin on the computer and i feel like shit i dont wanna be here...