another stupid fucking poem.
Look at the blood dripping from my thigh
the many tears I cry
The pain I feel
It's time to kill
The hurt is too much to bare
does anyone even care?!
At times I just want to die
But all I can seem to do is cry
There's too much blood
All my memorys come aflood
Time to go time to die
No more time to cry
Can't take it no more
Who the fuck am I living for?!
Oh look I'm bleeding
It's too late so stop your pleading
Time to say good-bye
Cuz' its time for me to die.
I wrote this today.. after a fight I had with someone I care very much about.. tho it feels like shes playing mind games with me.. and then after reading her entry just killed the last bit of my heart.. I can't take this shit anymore and if I didn't have a son. I would be dead right now. Even with Lindsay and my sister here. It feels like I'm living for nothing.. and nothing good will ever happen to me.. I feel like no matter how much love I give.. no one will ever give back that much love in return. I'm tired of loving ppl who don't love me back. I'm tired of giving everything I have just to please that person when in reality.. I don't please them at all. I wanted to be there for her,& for her birthday so she could have a good memory of her birthday and have me in it.. It seems other things and ppl are a lot more important than me, and I can't take it anymore. I even tried calling to talk things out.. she ignored my phone calls, all 3 of them. I'm tired of trying to do things for ppl and not even getting a thank you or being noticed. I really wanted to see her for her birthday and get her a birthday present.. I got her one.. and now I don't even know what to do with it.. I guess just throw it away. I'm done with this for now. Maybe I'll write later but I doubt it since Alecia is going to be spending the night.
the many tears I cry
The pain I feel
It's time to kill
The hurt is too much to bare
does anyone even care?!
At times I just want to die
But all I can seem to do is cry
There's too much blood
All my memorys come aflood
Time to go time to die
No more time to cry
Can't take it no more
Who the fuck am I living for?!
Oh look I'm bleeding
It's too late so stop your pleading
Time to say good-bye
Cuz' its time for me to die.
I wrote this today.. after a fight I had with someone I care very much about.. tho it feels like shes playing mind games with me.. and then after reading her entry just killed the last bit of my heart.. I can't take this shit anymore and if I didn't have a son. I would be dead right now. Even with Lindsay and my sister here. It feels like I'm living for nothing.. and nothing good will ever happen to me.. I feel like no matter how much love I give.. no one will ever give back that much love in return. I'm tired of loving ppl who don't love me back. I'm tired of giving everything I have just to please that person when in reality.. I don't please them at all. I wanted to be there for her,& for her birthday so she could have a good memory of her birthday and have me in it.. It seems other things and ppl are a lot more important than me, and I can't take it anymore. I even tried calling to talk things out.. she ignored my phone calls, all 3 of them. I'm tired of trying to do things for ppl and not even getting a thank you or being noticed. I really wanted to see her for her birthday and get her a birthday present.. I got her one.. and now I don't even know what to do with it.. I guess just throw it away. I'm done with this for now. Maybe I'll write later but I doubt it since Alecia is going to be spending the night.