**YaWn**
Well.. today.. was okay.. up until around 5pm.. then it started to not go well.. Laura and I started fighting b/c she said that I should go home around 7 b/c her and her mom are going to end up having a confrontation.. and stuff.. and I took it offensively and said I'll just leave now.. so I called Kristina and Todd.. and they said it would be awhile so I called my mom and kind of explained to her what was going on so she got them to leave then.. but they got stuck in traffic... and I had to go to the park with Laura for Amptgard.. which was a total shitty time.. She didn't talk to me or introduce me to the new peeps.. and then when Kris and Todd got there.. I said BYE and waved at everyone.. and she chased after me and said sorry and yada yada.. we end up fighting.. and I yell at kris and todd and I take off.. and ended up sitting by myself by the pool building a bit aways from the bathroom doors crying to myself.. I feel that pretty much everyone in tooele that's Laura's friends/family hates me.. if not that... doesn't like me much and just tolerates me b/c I'm with Laura.. I feel unwelcome at Laura's house.. and I don't think I want to ever go back there.. I don't know.. I'm hurting so bad and I have no one to run to.. I don't want to cut anymore.. b/c so many people I care about gets hurt when I do it so.. I don't want to anymore.. I don't know how to ask ppl for their help.. I get told to stop my bitching or they just laugh at me when I try.. I feel like no one cares about me.. I don't know what to do anymore... **sigh** I'm beginning to think FUCK LIFE.