The days
The past little while has been great actually. Jessy and I are back together and loving it! I have to go back to Virginia today at 2:30. I hating the thought of being away from Jessy, if I could I'd take her with me in a heartbeat. I'll hopefully only be up there for a week and a half, long enough for my court date, get my bill straightened out, get my car, see the family then I'm gone! If I can't work it like that, then I have to stay up there for 2-3 months! Fuck that shit! I'm wanting to move in with Jessy and her mom as soon as I can and whenever they get their place first, BUT I have to get Emancipated first, and right now the only way to do that is to get married, honestly I don't think Jessy's ready for that, and I know I'm not. Sure I'd do anything and love to be with her for the rest of my life, but I'm not ready for marriage yet. As you all know, yes Jessy and I have had our problems in the past, we've finally worked things out and go everything straightened out. Now we're happier then hell together. I would honest to God do anything for that girl, no matter what it was! I told her awhile back all I wanted from her was for her to be happy, she wouldn't tell me what would make her happy besides to get all the drama shit to end. I stuck with her for nearly 3 months to try and get all this drama shit to end and make her happy, I've finally done it, and I'm not letting this summer fuck that up! I've nearly cried for the past couple of nights just for the thought of me going away from her for a while. Now watch me cry today whenever I say my goodbye and kiss her one last time. I wasn't able to see her at all last weekend, I thought I was going to die from missing her so much. But I have to go to court tomarrow and get my wreck and this stupid bill straightened out. Jessy I'ma miss you so fuckin much!! If I could I'd take you with me in a heartbeat. Your one of the best things thats EVER happened to me, I don't know how I would be right now if I never met you. This summer is going to just plain suck ASS. Jessy means more then the world could ever mean to me, more then my own life means to me, I would do anything for her just for her to be happy and to stay hurtless. Jessy I love you with all my heart, and I always will.
Awhile back when I wrecked my car, mom found out I smoked. Dad still don't know, I'm thinking about telling him today, but I'm not sure if I should or not. I'm afraid he'll bitch at me more. Yesterday Jessy was up at the house, I asked dad if I could take her home because it was getting about that time. All he could do was just stand there and yell at me, then he tells me to make a 35 min round trip in 30 mins, no matter what the conditions. I called mom later last night after dad yelling at me, I found out I have no job up there,and prolly won't find one because they won't hire anyone under 16. So I might just come back down to Franklin either the 2nd or 3rd of next month and just have my birthday here. Dad said we could meet mom in Johnson City at 5. Mom wanted 4:30, I told Dad and he bitched at me again, then I told Mom what happened and me and her got into another arguement about what time to meet in Johnson City...I honestly don't know which way to go with my life right now, I'm not certain of anything except I want to be with Jessy. That is the only thing I'm certain of anymore, my life has mainly gone to hell and the only person who's keeping my sanity here with me is Jessy. I thank you so much for that Jessy. I get to spend and hour with Jessy after school today. Hopefully that hour won't be wasted and I'll be able to go to Hardee's and work things out with them on my schedule and get a pack of cigs for the 4 hour trip. But I'm out for now, thats all I have left to post for now.
I love you Jessy!
Nothing and nobody can change that!
Awhile back when I wrecked my car, mom found out I smoked. Dad still don't know, I'm thinking about telling him today, but I'm not sure if I should or not. I'm afraid he'll bitch at me more. Yesterday Jessy was up at the house, I asked dad if I could take her home because it was getting about that time. All he could do was just stand there and yell at me, then he tells me to make a 35 min round trip in 30 mins, no matter what the conditions. I called mom later last night after dad yelling at me, I found out I have no job up there,and prolly won't find one because they won't hire anyone under 16. So I might just come back down to Franklin either the 2nd or 3rd of next month and just have my birthday here. Dad said we could meet mom in Johnson City at 5. Mom wanted 4:30, I told Dad and he bitched at me again, then I told Mom what happened and me and her got into another arguement about what time to meet in Johnson City...I honestly don't know which way to go with my life right now, I'm not certain of anything except I want to be with Jessy. That is the only thing I'm certain of anymore, my life has mainly gone to hell and the only person who's keeping my sanity here with me is Jessy. I thank you so much for that Jessy. I get to spend and hour with Jessy after school today. Hopefully that hour won't be wasted and I'll be able to go to Hardee's and work things out with them on my schedule and get a pack of cigs for the 4 hour trip. But I'm out for now, thats all I have left to post for now.
I love you Jessy!
Nothing and nobody can change that!