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i feel like i am so damned understanding all the time. i am fucking sick of it. i guess maybe other people don't even see that i really am tho. that sucks too. so fuck. i have been cranky and blah lately. not all blah and cranky, just not sooper thrilled about things either. and easily agitated. its not the holidays really. ite more general life. the holidays cn be stressful and bullshit-filled and make me go broke and can be rather emotional, but in general i like the holidays. its other things. i am sick of being understanding. especially because people dont even seem to realize i am.