the kiss
well, its a kiss. there are good ones and bad ones. i have had so many of those "flat" kisses. but i dont know if i was the only one feeling that or not. flatness, nothingness, no tingle, no spark, no raging hormones...nothingness. that is what i feel a lot these days in a kiss. not that i have kissed many people lately, but u know... and u wonder why. why is this thing you have been looking forward to so blah? why can't u feel that special flush of warmth or tingle you used to feel when kissing? i like to pretend (but also ignore!) that its just getting older and that a kiss is a kiss for the most part (unless you are especially horny or very much loving the person), and that its just an old familairity now. been there, done that. i am seeking something new and provoking. the kiss may lead to that. if not, get out and run. i don't know. whatever. something new, something exciting, something different, something to disrupt the every day ironed-flat-clothness of life... some sort of massive wrinkle to shorten the distance from here to there and add some variety. something to speed things along and get me from where i am now to where i might be later. i sure hope it comes.
does this make sense? maybe not, but i get it i think.
does this make sense? maybe not, but i get it i think.