arg to the arg FUCK!!
o wow sry that last one was had a typo... the month is june not July. Well Well Well. sigh sigh sigh. As u may get from my picture i am not a happy camper. Today was my say 4th failure of the year. It is a long story and I have all the space in the world here so i'll tell it.
based on my past posts u can kind of guess how I feel about shakespere, acting, music etc. Well my audition (women of shakespere preformance) was a smash hit EVERYONE said that i was great and amazing. People that never even saw me really act before told me "Sheri, I didn't know that you could do that". Anywayz so that went really well. Ever since that day i KNEW that I had to get some sort of role even if I was a servant, turns out i was fucking wrong. The worst part about all this is that even the director herself led me on, she told me "It is totaly possible that you can play your clarinet in one of the shows", the woman I thought this lady was is gone not even a memory in my head. OUT OF 28 FEMALE PARTS I GOT NOTHING!!!. My fuckin self esteem is so low that i feel like a fuckin failure at everything, even though this is not totaly unrealistic. Everything that I thought I was once gifted in I found out this year i am NOT. Nyssma... totaly blew the audition, school... worked my ass off in global and ended wit something in the seventies and now actinG. I tell you when will i finaly be able to show people that I am actually good in something.
look at me, its summer and the first day has officially been ruined. For those of u who want to know who made it i will GLADLY (sarcastic) tell u of a few of them who i just loveeeeeee so dearly
1- CARoline irving--
2- Carly DeFeis
3- Emily Upton DAVIS
all of the people that actual deserve these roles did not get one single part... and i am really not trying to look like a person who is like oh look at me now feel sorry for me! its just that I am FUCKING PISSED OFF MY FUCKING HEAD
-ByE
based on my past posts u can kind of guess how I feel about shakespere, acting, music etc. Well my audition (women of shakespere preformance) was a smash hit EVERYONE said that i was great and amazing. People that never even saw me really act before told me "Sheri, I didn't know that you could do that". Anywayz so that went really well. Ever since that day i KNEW that I had to get some sort of role even if I was a servant, turns out i was fucking wrong. The worst part about all this is that even the director herself led me on, she told me "It is totaly possible that you can play your clarinet in one of the shows", the woman I thought this lady was is gone not even a memory in my head. OUT OF 28 FEMALE PARTS I GOT NOTHING!!!. My fuckin self esteem is so low that i feel like a fuckin failure at everything, even though this is not totaly unrealistic. Everything that I thought I was once gifted in I found out this year i am NOT. Nyssma... totaly blew the audition, school... worked my ass off in global and ended wit something in the seventies and now actinG. I tell you when will i finaly be able to show people that I am actually good in something.
look at me, its summer and the first day has officially been ruined. For those of u who want to know who made it i will GLADLY (sarcastic) tell u of a few of them who i just loveeeeeee so dearly
1- CARoline irving--
2- Carly DeFeis
3- Emily Upton DAVIS
all of the people that actual deserve these roles did not get one single part... and i am really not trying to look like a person who is like oh look at me now feel sorry for me! its just that I am FUCKING PISSED OFF MY FUCKING HEAD
-ByE