Somebody shoot me
So today after all the shit that has been taking place since the "Girlfriend" said we are through for the hundredth time and I didn't stick around to argue it and take her back, after all her almost and i do not exagerate total of about 150 calls, and emails and Yahoo messages appologising and begging and practically ripping my heart out, I finally confronted her cause i'd had enough. She broke into tears, begged, pleaded, told me i was her everything, that she didn't mean to keep hurting me and saying mean things, that if i gave her one more chance she'd show she could change, that she hadn't tried before but this time she'd give it her all, and just to give her an answer (this after i'd asked her to give me a few days of peace to think which just meant she tripled her letter, and message sending effort) I told her No i wasn't getting back with her and I meant it, which was followed by more begging, crying, pleading, and telling me i am the perfect man, so i offered to start kinda over no bf/gf just dating and she wouldn't go, i asked her for a few days peace, again no go, and then i told her it was very obvious then she wouldn't do anything. To sum it up though she has finally agreed and gotten it in her head that we are through, it hurt me very much cause i hate to put someone through it, and hear them go through it but it's through. As much as i wanted this to just finish and for the drama to end, now that it seems over i'm left feeling a bit empty, maybe because someone cared that much for me, or at least thinks they do, and i've hurt them even though i'm just trying to save both me and them future pain. Why does life give you these really hard painful decisions to make that just tear you to pieces inside? I kinda feel like crap, but i knew i had to do this and stay strong, but it doesn't mean it feels right. well thats all for now.