Aftermath
So I said that I didn't want to go to Birthday Ball. I think I made the right decision by going. However, I want to address how pathetic my life is... Once again because I don't think anyone could be anymore pitiful than me...
1) Both the people who asked me to Birthday Ball were there.
2) One tried to get her hand up my dress and was very close to my private square.
3) The other followed me around all night and eyed me up, nodding approvingly while I danced.
4) I was petrified of his eyes and his constantly being behind me.
5) So another guy was there. He was in the DH trying to get me to go and while he was there, he was all over me.
6) He was touchy-feely and telling me how hot I am.
7) I had a little alcohol and I'm not sure but it seemed like he wanted to take advantage of me.
8) These three people were why I needed the alcohol!
9) The fourth person was a bitch at the very beginning of the night and I got over it after I chugged some wine and ran out to do the Cha Cha Slide.
10) Everyone looked at just my tits.
11) It just comes to show what I am to people.
Despite all of this... Birthday Ball was a BLAST! I could spend my time griping, but I don't need to! I was on the verge of tears and, sadly, alcohol got me to loosen up and stop thinking about the people who were there. These were 4 people out of the hundreds that were there. Why the fuck should I let them ruin my night? So I didn't!
1) Wine = yum!
2) I have amazing calves!
3) I managed to dance fairly well in those heels!
4) I made friends with an amazing guy who complimented me the entire night by saying that a) I looked "fabulous," b) I'm adorable, c) I have sexy legs which he played with a lot and eventually fell asleep with his head on, d) I have great boobs, which he rested his head on, e) I am sweet, f) I'm funny, g) I'm fun, and h-zz) [lol zz is for sarcasm] he gave me a lot of attention that I needed: kisses on my forehead, lips, rubbing my back, cuddling in Cory's bed later, holding my hand, dancing with me all night, grinding nicely too. He's gay so it's ok. Haha! Just an amazing guy. Gay guys are the best boyfriends! <3
5) After Birthday Ball in Cory's room... All that needs to be said.
6) I am HOT!
7) I put aside all my insecurities of being too tall, too fat, my acne, my scars, my everything and I felt like a knockout!
8) When I need confidence, I know I can look to those photos.
9) I was fucking loosened up for once!
10) My friend and I were the first to slow dance on the floor and we got a bunch of people out there... Ariella and Rae!!! He was a gentleman and told me that I was beautiful. He sang and we ballroom danced it! I was spinning in my heels!
11) The hand going up the skirt thing is a twisted compliment. A lot of people checked me out, even the photographers were like- click, click, click!
12) Umm... Calves. AGAIN!
13) AMONN!!! Oh wow did I ever need her! I'm glad she got out but I'm happiest that she was happy at the end of the night! I'm glad her evening was "enchanted."
14) I don't need a date to be happy. I ended up having 3 dates by the end of the night!
15) Payback is a bitch, even if it was influenced by alcohol. People can go to hell for only wanting me for ass. I just showed them what they're missing!!!
16) I finally made the decision to quit trying and when I did, everything was lifted.
17) I can't believe I almost forgot about these three hot chicks who decided that I was hot and to grind on me. Oh, it was great! I am still thinking about that one! Yay harems! I had every guy's fantasy!
18) I was trying to help this one drunk girl, incredibly hot, and she fell on the ground. I saw EVERYTHING. JACKPOT!!!!!
19) I think I'm officially a fag hag.
20) So many people came up to me, even during the half hour of emoing. I'm such a happy person when I'm social!
I could go on but it's too much already! I don't regret going, despite the bullshit.
Just yay. That's all... Yay!
1) Both the people who asked me to Birthday Ball were there.
2) One tried to get her hand up my dress and was very close to my private square.
3) The other followed me around all night and eyed me up, nodding approvingly while I danced.
4) I was petrified of his eyes and his constantly being behind me.
5) So another guy was there. He was in the DH trying to get me to go and while he was there, he was all over me.
6) He was touchy-feely and telling me how hot I am.
7) I had a little alcohol and I'm not sure but it seemed like he wanted to take advantage of me.
8) These three people were why I needed the alcohol!
9) The fourth person was a bitch at the very beginning of the night and I got over it after I chugged some wine and ran out to do the Cha Cha Slide.
10) Everyone looked at just my tits.
11) It just comes to show what I am to people.
Despite all of this... Birthday Ball was a BLAST! I could spend my time griping, but I don't need to! I was on the verge of tears and, sadly, alcohol got me to loosen up and stop thinking about the people who were there. These were 4 people out of the hundreds that were there. Why the fuck should I let them ruin my night? So I didn't!
1) Wine = yum!
2) I have amazing calves!
3) I managed to dance fairly well in those heels!
4) I made friends with an amazing guy who complimented me the entire night by saying that a) I looked "fabulous," b) I'm adorable, c) I have sexy legs which he played with a lot and eventually fell asleep with his head on, d) I have great boobs, which he rested his head on, e) I am sweet, f) I'm funny, g) I'm fun, and h-zz) [lol zz is for sarcasm] he gave me a lot of attention that I needed: kisses on my forehead, lips, rubbing my back, cuddling in Cory's bed later, holding my hand, dancing with me all night, grinding nicely too. He's gay so it's ok. Haha! Just an amazing guy. Gay guys are the best boyfriends! <3
5) After Birthday Ball in Cory's room... All that needs to be said.
6) I am HOT!
7) I put aside all my insecurities of being too tall, too fat, my acne, my scars, my everything and I felt like a knockout!
8) When I need confidence, I know I can look to those photos.
9) I was fucking loosened up for once!
10) My friend and I were the first to slow dance on the floor and we got a bunch of people out there... Ariella and Rae!!! He was a gentleman and told me that I was beautiful. He sang and we ballroom danced it! I was spinning in my heels!
11) The hand going up the skirt thing is a twisted compliment. A lot of people checked me out, even the photographers were like- click, click, click!
12) Umm... Calves. AGAIN!
13) AMONN!!! Oh wow did I ever need her! I'm glad she got out but I'm happiest that she was happy at the end of the night! I'm glad her evening was "enchanted."
14) I don't need a date to be happy. I ended up having 3 dates by the end of the night!
15) Payback is a bitch, even if it was influenced by alcohol. People can go to hell for only wanting me for ass. I just showed them what they're missing!!!
16) I finally made the decision to quit trying and when I did, everything was lifted.
17) I can't believe I almost forgot about these three hot chicks who decided that I was hot and to grind on me. Oh, it was great! I am still thinking about that one! Yay harems! I had every guy's fantasy!
18) I was trying to help this one drunk girl, incredibly hot, and she fell on the ground. I saw EVERYTHING. JACKPOT!!!!!
19) I think I'm officially a fag hag.
20) So many people came up to me, even during the half hour of emoing. I'm such a happy person when I'm social!
I could go on but it's too much already! I don't regret going, despite the bullshit.
Just yay. That's all... Yay!