Thanks everyone for your words :) Everywhere i read, they said you had say a Sinners Prayer and thats how you get saved but i like what you two read since its hits closer to home. I'll amit there are times in the day when i feel close to GOD and times when i feel far away but God and Jesus is always on my mind, whether its me arguing with myself on doubts or those evil little voices that comes and try to pull you away,correcting myself on something i did or done, or just meditation on them.
I've realized that praying in thought and in my mind is easy, but when it comes for me to voice it, it becomes really hard. I actually surprised myself very much yesterday when my mother, sister, and I were talking about my second cousin who we found out didn't even know who GOD was till she asked my aunt(her grandmother) becasue her mother ( my cousin), father, or anyone of her fathers family never told her and my mother asked i Ash ( my sis) and I were Jesus Freaks and i said yes and pround of it and my voice is still ringing in my ears.
I just hope that this yearning in my heart to be with Jesus and God means that i am saved. Thanks to the book "GOD at your wits end" by Marilyn Meberg, i know that even if i have doubts once in awhile, it won't prevent me from getting into heaven. The book really helped me since it hit home on some of the issues i've been dealing with.
"Yes, it's very scary to think of giving over control of your life"
That is one of my main problems. I've prided myself on being independent and in personal control and have been praised in it soo much that its is very hard for me to submit to a higher power. It doesn't help that i'm pridfull and stubborn. In my heart i want to submit myself totally to God and Jesus but my head/brain says otherwise and puts on the breaks. Marilyn says in her book that you can "will" yourself to believe and since i can be very strong willed, i've been trying that.
Its only been about 2 weeks since i really pushed myself into the Christian faith so i'm not sure if my progress is good or not or that i'm pushing myself too hard. Its just the news resounds Bible prophecy soo much that i want to know that if the Rapture does come soon, i'll be on the train. I'm not sure if its even good to say that the only reason that i got into the Christian faith is becasue of that. I feel abit ashamed of that fact alittle since it was my fear tha pulled me towards GOD and Jesus and not their love at first and that fear still motivates me. They say Fear of the LORD is the first step to real wisdom so....
I thank everyone for their answers to my questions and look forward to talking with you some more.
Melissa-- the things you are currently dealing with are things we have dealt with/are dealing with! I hope that encourages you! Cling to Jesus alone and seek Him. It is very good that you are hungering for God's word.
Thats one of the best things i've heard all day :D Its nice to know that i'm not alone in dealing with the issues i'm dealing with :D Thank you for writing that. :D
Yep, "fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom" You are absolutely right.
Every Christian struggles with doubt, pride, stubborness, and feeling far away from God. It's part of the wrestling we need to do in order to willingly give up the parts of ourselves that God can use for His purposes.
I have no doubt that Jesus is in your heart and remember it is a journey, a race, and as long as we keep pushing toward the prize that God has set before us, then we can't be taken off the road to heaven. Even Jesus had to bring up the possiblity that the cup of crucifixtion would pass from him, because he has been tested and subjected to every temptation we have been tempted with. That's what makes Him such a wonderful Savior. He knows what we struggle with and He shows us the way to overcome our doubts and imperfections.
Even after being a Christian for 15 years, I still have times where I feel God is so very far away, but it is really me who has moved.
Even Jesus had to bring up the possiblity that the cup of crucifixtion would pass from him, because he has been tested and subjected to every temptation we have been tempted with.
I never thought about that before. Knowing that Jesus faced the same temptations that we do makes me even more encouraged since if He and then the disciples faced the same challenges that i'm facing: gives me more courage since if they can do it, I can do it. ( Of coures it can be agrued whether Jesus had an easier time or harder time than us)
I've realized that praying in thought and in my mind is easy, but when it comes for me to voice it, it becomes really hard. I actually surprised myself very much yesterday when my mother, sister, and I were talking about my second cousin who we found out didn't even know who GOD was till she asked my aunt(her grandmother) becasue her mother ( my cousin), father, or anyone of her fathers family never told her and my mother asked i Ash ( my sis) and I were Jesus Freaks and i said yes and pround of it and my voice is still ringing in my ears.
I just hope that this yearning in my heart to be with Jesus and God means that i am saved. Thanks to the book "GOD at your wits end" by Marilyn Meberg, i know that even if i have doubts once in awhile, it won't prevent me from getting into heaven. The book really helped me since it hit home on some of the issues i've been dealing with.
"Yes, it's very scary to think of giving over control of your life"
That is one of my main problems. I've prided myself on being independent and in personal control and have been praised in it soo much that its is very hard for me to submit to a higher power. It doesn't help that i'm pridfull and stubborn. In my heart i want to submit myself totally to God and Jesus but my head/brain says otherwise and puts on the breaks. Marilyn says in her book that you can "will" yourself to believe and since i can be very strong willed, i've been trying that.
Its only been about 2 weeks since i really pushed myself into the Christian faith so i'm not sure if my progress is good or not or that i'm pushing myself too hard. Its just the news resounds Bible prophecy soo much that i want to know that if the Rapture does come soon, i'll be on the train. I'm not sure if its even good to say that the only reason that i got into the Christian faith is becasue of that. I feel abit ashamed of that fact alittle since it was my fear tha pulled me towards GOD and Jesus and not their love at first and that fear still motivates me. They say Fear of the LORD is the first step to real wisdom so....
I thank everyone for their answers to my questions and look forward to talking with you some more.
Melissa
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Every Christian struggles with doubt, pride, stubborness, and feeling far away from God. It's part of the wrestling we need to do in order to willingly give up the parts of ourselves that God can use for His purposes.
I have no doubt that Jesus is in your heart and remember it is a journey, a race, and as long as we keep pushing toward the prize that God has set before us, then we can't be taken off the road to heaven. Even Jesus had to bring up the possiblity that the cup of crucifixtion would pass from him, because he has been tested and subjected to every temptation we have been tempted with. That's what makes Him such a wonderful Savior. He knows what we struggle with and He shows us the way to overcome our doubts and imperfections.
Even after being a Christian for 15 years, I still have times where I feel God is so very far away, but it is really me who has moved.
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Even Jesus had to bring up the possiblity that the cup of crucifixtion would pass from him, because he has been tested and subjected to every temptation we have been tempted with.
I never thought about that before. Knowing that Jesus faced the same temptations that we do makes me even more encouraged since if He and then the disciples faced the same challenges that i'm facing: gives me more courage since if they can do it, I can do it. ( Of coures it can be agrued whether Jesus had an easier time or harder time than us)
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