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...Okay. Well... first day back at school.
I'm happy. It was nice, calm, optimistic... everyone's in better spirits for the approaching pro-session, the tests are coming up but not too close to worry about yet or put stress on anyone...
Even my friends and teachers are happier. Calmer. Ms. Larkin is awesome when she's calm, she's fun and funny and sweet and amazing andand...
And then Gracie and I are getting closer again, which is great because she's adorable and quiet and lovely and silly!
Then there's Schyler, my Creampuff, and just... the stress and anxiety from before is so far away. He isn't holding in near as much anger and stress, I can see it in his eyes, the way he talks walks everything. He's slowly recovering from his girlfriend breaking up with him, from the missed homework. And... yeah, he's confusing me again. He's flirting some. But mostly? He's just... cuddly and sweet and understanding. We share a lot of views, a lot of feelings and... he waited for me! During PE, when normally he'll just jogg by himself... he waited for me to catch up~
And yeah. I mean... I can't really say I like the idea of a relationship period, and definately not with a guy who, despite how sweet he is, can get himself 'indefinately suspended'. Twice. But just... the thought? The acts? The little pats on the back and smiles? It makes me feel better. Not as anti-social and alone. Not unlikeable, that's not the word. Just... alone. I guess.
It was a great day for me. ...With a lot of terrible, terrible things going on elsewhere.
Now I can't help but feel kind of guilty, because I'm sitting here feeling happy as a clam, and I am sad about all the people who were hurt or killed! I am! But... I can't bring that little smile off my face. ;~;
I'm happy. It was nice, calm, optimistic... everyone's in better spirits for the approaching pro-session, the tests are coming up but not too close to worry about yet or put stress on anyone...
Even my friends and teachers are happier. Calmer. Ms. Larkin is awesome when she's calm, she's fun and funny and sweet and amazing andand...
And then Gracie and I are getting closer again, which is great because she's adorable and quiet and lovely and silly!
Then there's Schyler, my Creampuff, and just... the stress and anxiety from before is so far away. He isn't holding in near as much anger and stress, I can see it in his eyes, the way he talks walks everything. He's slowly recovering from his girlfriend breaking up with him, from the missed homework. And... yeah, he's confusing me again. He's flirting some. But mostly? He's just... cuddly and sweet and understanding. We share a lot of views, a lot of feelings and... he waited for me! During PE, when normally he'll just jogg by himself... he waited for me to catch up~
And yeah. I mean... I can't really say I like the idea of a relationship period, and definately not with a guy who, despite how sweet he is, can get himself 'indefinately suspended'. Twice. But just... the thought? The acts? The little pats on the back and smiles? It makes me feel better. Not as anti-social and alone. Not unlikeable, that's not the word. Just... alone. I guess.
It was a great day for me. ...With a lot of terrible, terrible things going on elsewhere.
Now I can't help but feel kind of guilty, because I'm sitting here feeling happy as a clam, and I am sad about all the people who were hurt or killed! I am! But... I can't bring that little smile off my face. ;~;