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Heh. Funny that. I had a short day at school, it went great, my play's going to be in rehersal tomorrow, I got the casting I want... hell, I even went to see "Night at the Museum" tonight.
Why, then, do I feel like crying?
I kinda know why... I really, really miss Mom. She's working on her props and opera and all, so I know she's really busy... but just the same? She's stressed and panicked and tired from working so hard... but I can't help her. I can try, but... I mean, the most I can do is try to get things done on my own. Not call her up when I think that no one is picking me up from school. Make sure to heat up water in the morning and not ask if she can help me with... whatever.
And the thing is? I came home twice tonight. Once at four, the second time at seven. Both times, she's still been at work.
I'm really worried about her. And I really miss seeing her. You all have to realize, we are the only two females in the house. Even the pets are male. So it's like... at my age, when I really need a female to talk to, someone who I can really trust and get support from, I'm surrounded by guys who just don't know how to deal with me and who end up unintentionally (or not) hurting my feelings. Picking on me. Laughing at things that are important or 'cool' to me.
And that sounds kinda self-centered too. I should be more concerned with Mom. And I am, but... I don't know. I miss her. Really badly.
Why, then, do I feel like crying?
I kinda know why... I really, really miss Mom. She's working on her props and opera and all, so I know she's really busy... but just the same? She's stressed and panicked and tired from working so hard... but I can't help her. I can try, but... I mean, the most I can do is try to get things done on my own. Not call her up when I think that no one is picking me up from school. Make sure to heat up water in the morning and not ask if she can help me with... whatever.
And the thing is? I came home twice tonight. Once at four, the second time at seven. Both times, she's still been at work.
I'm really worried about her. And I really miss seeing her. You all have to realize, we are the only two females in the house. Even the pets are male. So it's like... at my age, when I really need a female to talk to, someone who I can really trust and get support from, I'm surrounded by guys who just don't know how to deal with me and who end up unintentionally (or not) hurting my feelings. Picking on me. Laughing at things that are important or 'cool' to me.
And that sounds kinda self-centered too. I should be more concerned with Mom. And I am, but... I don't know. I miss her. Really badly.