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this is the beginning of a private post i made weeks ago..i think it reveals some of what is brewing inside me...
"I am in the midst of something great and beautiful, yet also painful and frightening. I was driving to work (or school..I don't remember) and on the radio they were talking about some actor that recently got a divorce. He said he was in church listening to the minister and the minister said something like "get rid of everything in your life that is not serving you" and shortly after he decided to make some serious changes, including a divorce. Something about the statement penetrated to the core...while the idea of "serving you" sounds borderline "self-gratifying" and selfish...it made sense to me...how could i go about my life living to my fullest potential with dead weight?"
"I am in the midst of something great and beautiful, yet also painful and frightening. I was driving to work (or school..I don't remember) and on the radio they were talking about some actor that recently got a divorce. He said he was in church listening to the minister and the minister said something like "get rid of everything in your life that is not serving you" and shortly after he decided to make some serious changes, including a divorce. Something about the statement penetrated to the core...while the idea of "serving you" sounds borderline "self-gratifying" and selfish...it made sense to me...how could i go about my life living to my fullest potential with dead weight?"