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Its not often that I sit down and think about me having children, but I do. I just read an article by a woman that has the same thing I do, PCOS. In this article she talks about her struggles to be diagnosed but the bigger struggles in trying to conceive a child. More than 3 yrs of trying and she still has not been able to become pregnant. And there are no drugs that can truly help someone become pregnant. Someone with PCOS cannot be assured that they will ever be able to get pregnant. How crappy is that...the chance of never being able to carry a child, the thought of possibly having multiple miscarriages. Multiple miscarriages, think about that, how many times do you think one person could handle being told they are pregnant and then poof one day its gone and there is no explanation of why except to say that your body is acting against you. For some people the thought of going thru all of that trauma and fear is not worth it. They are willing to go a life without a child or to adopt. While adopting is a wonderful idea, one that I full well support and would consider myself, it does not replace the thought of carrying in your on womb a fetus that will develop into a gorgeous child that will turn into a wonderful adult. It scares me to think that I might not be able to do that, to feel what its like having someone grow inside me, to go thru the painfulness of childbirth and then to experience everything that raising a child has to offer. I want to be able to do that. I am almost 24 yrs old, have no current relationship and can't picture that I am lucky enough to have one soon. This just means that my ability to start trying is put back yet again. Maybe by the time Im 30 someone will have determined how much they love me, will marry me, and we can start the long and agonizing task of trying to conceive a child. Or maybe I will be lucky enough to get pregnant right away. I guess either way has to start with finding someone to spend the rest of my life with. Hopefully they will be able to handle all of my emotionalness that comes around regarding this topic.