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I've been on a Rufus kick for a bit now...I'm happy to have him back around...I lost one of my cd's but after a bit of search and discovery in my whole of a closet and bedroom I uncovered him along with a few other long lost gems! Including a cd I made for a roll out at J.Crew in 2002! That definitely made me smile!
My first show at Wheelock Family Theatre is now closed! Yesterday was the last time I'll watch 'Holes' Woohoo!
Other than that...not much to disclose...
It's taken a year and half of self-loathing to realize what I want in my personal life...and the moment I figured it out was the moment the possibility of getting it was taken away. I've been a bad boy for quite awhile...not allowing myself to open up, keeping hidden under a cloak of amazingness...But I undressed myself and took in some fresh air. I opened up to someone only to get hurt...I'm in the same boat as so many others...
The best part of the experience? I realized I could get hurt again! I realized I have the possibility of wanting more from someone and working hard for it. That's amazing! Yay for me! I'm optimistic now...it's been awhile since I felt this way...
I don't feel so poor right now either...The raise I got at work is starting to make a difference to my bank account and it makes me feel good to know I'm that much closer to not having to go hungry at the end of the month! haha I'm still poor, but just not as much as before and I think I can manage keeping some saved in a different account...next step being able to invest the savings instead of thinking of it as rainy day money! One step at a time Jeffy!
I'm introducing myself solely as Jacob now...It's been awhile coming to this point, but it's time...No more will I tell people well I'm Jacob, but I could be Jeff, or anything else...I will still refer to myself as Jeff here, I'd say...When i talk to myself that's how I address myself...hehe...i really am crazy!
I feel good about my body right now...I have now noticed a bit of a difference in the mirror...rock on! I'm thin, but toned...yayayay. I don't need to get bigger, i've overcome that dream.
Now I just need a good steady group of friends...I've alienated most of my last ones...sigh
My first show at Wheelock Family Theatre is now closed! Yesterday was the last time I'll watch 'Holes' Woohoo!
Other than that...not much to disclose...
It's taken a year and half of self-loathing to realize what I want in my personal life...and the moment I figured it out was the moment the possibility of getting it was taken away. I've been a bad boy for quite awhile...not allowing myself to open up, keeping hidden under a cloak of amazingness...But I undressed myself and took in some fresh air. I opened up to someone only to get hurt...I'm in the same boat as so many others...
The best part of the experience? I realized I could get hurt again! I realized I have the possibility of wanting more from someone and working hard for it. That's amazing! Yay for me! I'm optimistic now...it's been awhile since I felt this way...
I don't feel so poor right now either...The raise I got at work is starting to make a difference to my bank account and it makes me feel good to know I'm that much closer to not having to go hungry at the end of the month! haha I'm still poor, but just not as much as before and I think I can manage keeping some saved in a different account...next step being able to invest the savings instead of thinking of it as rainy day money! One step at a time Jeffy!
I'm introducing myself solely as Jacob now...It's been awhile coming to this point, but it's time...No more will I tell people well I'm Jacob, but I could be Jeff, or anything else...I will still refer to myself as Jeff here, I'd say...When i talk to myself that's how I address myself...hehe...i really am crazy!
I feel good about my body right now...I have now noticed a bit of a difference in the mirror...rock on! I'm thin, but toned...yayayay. I don't need to get bigger, i've overcome that dream.
Now I just need a good steady group of friends...I've alienated most of my last ones...sigh