of sweetduperry love & ultra exhaustion*
of'superduperry sweet lovelove <3
izzah&mdm reh are adorra's lovelove sweethearts. ((((((((:
(i know i have tonnes of lovesweetlove, wait there is only one and that is superwoman. well i have tonnes of lovelove and sweethearts but they are my lovelove+sweethearts, geddit? i don't think you did. pfft, its okay.)
dinnerdate with them was just awesome and lovelove! :D
dinner on friday nights are always the best because it will always be with the great people and with their rock ass awesome company. (I just have a great sense in choosing the right people for friday dinners.) the best definitely when you have al fresco dining and overlooking the bridge linking Singapore to Sentosa and seeing the Sentosa Express trams going back and forth to Sentosa. (I'm just being bias.) we met up at Buona Vista after Mdm Reh's MOE meeting and proceeded back to Vivo for me for our dinner. :) LOL. Highlight of the evening is seeing Mdm Reh taking the train because trains and buses doesn't exist in her dictionary. :p Alighting at Harbour was annoying as usual because of inconsiderate assholes never allow us the passengers to alight first and they just push their way into the train or they purposely stand right in front of the doors and thus blocking our way. I swear I could have just slap their bloody faces with my laptop.
we went around Vivo in search for Mdm Reh's phone. she got pissed at this one shop while i got irritated. bad service = bad show. we got hungry, very hungry rather and we headed down to Figs&Olive. The food over there is not bad, quite nice overall. I had my Fish Melted Cheese, the amount of my melted cheese was like half a slice and it wasn't really melted because by the time it was served, the cheese had already hardened and so did my fish. Pfft. Me and Izzah exchanged a teeny bit of our food. She ate my fries, I ate her veggie and Mdm Reh's as well. We kept talking about the staffs there especially the girl who served Mdm Reh with 'warm' water. Service was okay. (: (after working in the service industry, i am beginning to get a little too particular about the service i will be getting and hell, i do get annoyed by it at times.) we talked, we shared, we discussed, we raised our opinions and it was just like the good old get togethers we always had. i loved the part when Mdm Reh told us about her story when she was under medication then her body was watery and all. my imagination was at its best then trying to picture her then. LMAO. :D
the queens of desserts namely me, Adorra Pye-Ha and Izzah succeeded in psychoing Mdm Reh for dessert although we were already full then but magically as always, there is always an extra space just for dessert in our stomachs. ::grins:: We went Haagen Dazs because Ben&Jerry's was full, like forever. All of us ordered the same thing with different ice cream flavors of course. :) Ice cream was okay but I still prefer B&Js. :D We talked somemore, Mdm Reh disturbed me somemore as always and we took photos la duh! :p
we missha-ed because of me. i had this urge to update my nail colors. :) bought two new colors, slut red and bronzey brown and missha's nail color remover, strawberry flavored! :) Izzah became Mdm Reh's guinea pig with her very lan skills in nail coloring. hahaha! XD we also had this oh-my-god-you-are-her-teacher-?-! incident. cracked me up like nuts and yes, we have aged till we look almost like Mdm Reh now. Sigh*
cabbed home with mdm reh&izzah. it was a sudden decision and you know cab don't exactly exist in my dictionary unless i am late for school or work or when it is late already and there are no buses left for me to go home at night.
The dinner date was definitely the best and the ultimate highlight of my so regretful and depressing Friday. I enjoyed every moment of the dinner date even though I became Mdm Reh's hitting bag for a while. Thanks love for the dinner and dessert and your awesommmmme company. Have a safe trip to Holland and back to sunny Singapore. Enjoy your holidays, take care and don't forget my droste k? :D Izzah, dessert pals forever and love you and your company tonnes more. :)
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of'ultra exhaustion.
i am still exhausted, very very drained. i am sorry but i don't need other things or trivial problems to come into my life at the current moment and drain the last few bits of my energy. i know i am selfish but i am tired already of being selfless, thinking about others and neglecting my ownself and not being appreciated. you know the feeling of not being appreciated and i don't think i need to go into it. you know as much as i want to help you solve the problem, i can't cos' i am burned out already.
another thing, i don't force people or friends especially to tell me everything about their lives/bf/gf/problems. i believe it is your life, you choose whether do you wish to update your friends on what is happening in your life or who is the current boy or girl you are with. If you tell or update me, I am more than happy to listen to you and of course will be happy for you and if it is problems, i will definitely try my best to be there for you. And sometimes, it is best that you don't tell me in the first place when it happened once already and you suffered greatly from it. Ignorance is a bliss, agreed? But let me just make this one thing clear, if you are my bestfriend and I am the last one to know about something that concerns you and I mean the last one in this world to know about it, you know you are in for it. I swear that really pisses me off like nobody's business and it just goes to show how insignificant and unimportant my friendship and me as your friend in your life.
lastly, my maternal aunts are never the love affair in my life because you know why, it is like forever in their eyes, I am the baddest, ungrateful daughter my mum ever had in her whole life and she should regret bringing me out into this world. Their daughters and sons are the best, the rare gem, the greatest gift God blessed them with while I am nothing, zilch compared to them. & of course, to make matters worse 3/4 of the time, my mum must emphasise on the words/remarks they say and indirectly agree with them. Just like this morning, I would have agreed to help her send her Satay gravy to my cousin at Bukit Batok if she had told me or wake me up in the morning but she didn't. And that cousin of mine told my aunt that it was my mum who sent that gravy to her and my aunt is angry that it was her and not me.Of course, bad news always travel faster than good news and now all my aunts are angry at me because I didn't send the gravy to my cousin. & they are saying that it is wrong of me to make my mum go all the way to BB to send the gravy. And right now, I bet they are just going on saying how ungrateful, selfish, bad and all those negative things I am.
yesyes my dear aunts, your daughters and sons are the best of all in this family even if two of them are already messed up and screwed up like shit plus their future are so so much bleaker than mine. Did I mention that at least i still think of them (my parents) and they are indeed my first priority in my life other than friends and studies? Your children are the living legends of perfect children ironies.
Oh God, what a life I have.
(edit)*oh ya, sure, ignore, cover your ears. if it happens to you everyday or at least 2-3 times a week, it will come to a point even when you cover your ears, magically, the hurtful remarks/words will be able to go through your hands and then start puncturing your heart.
for once, i am beginning to believe what K said. Sometimes, outsiders see you the best. Only Mrs Elaine Ng know that I am a gem and she appreciates me for everything that I have done. How I wished that my mum, for once can just stand up and say that I am better than my cousins and I am a gem not some worthless piece of junk.(/edit)