[ What I am and what I want to be ]

[psyche_delirium]

I am lonely.
I am procrastinating.
I am far away.  
I am a creature filled with anger towards many people and things
that stays at a steady 
simmer.
People take advantage of me 
and disrespect me a lot.

I want to be with someone. I want love.
I want to be successful 
and motivated.
I want to be a creature of forgiveness
but not necessarily 
someone you can walk all over.
I want to be appreciated
and respected by my friends
instead of what I've been doing
for the past twenty years or my life.

I am flawed. I am torn. 
I want to try to save everyone
when I am in distress too.

I don't want to be perfect, but
I want to be a GOOD person.
I want to be stronger
and of course I want to save people
but not at the expense of myself anymore.

I want to trust my cats to judge a person's character better.
Hazel was terrified of one of the people that has hurt me.

But for some reason Sid kinda liked matt.
maybe because hes not really evil, its just one of his many facades.

I have a lot to do. I have to catch up in school, and somehow find the time to fix the mess that grew inside of me these past couple of months.

Ive got a long road ahead of me. Lets just hope I don't ever stop walking.