Well fuck THAT
Today is my 23rd birthday. In less than 2 hours, I will officially be 23 years old.
And I learned the truth about Alex E. Wilson. I feel relieved and I feel redeemed. I had asked his dad whether or not Alex talked about me, wondering if he is missing me as much as I am missing him. All he said about me was that I was ANNOYING trying to call him after he hadn't called me back for 2 weeks after I had poured my heart out to him and that he would call me back.
So he thought that I was being ANNOYING after TWO WEEKS he didn't call and said that he would so we can finally get some closure for this relationship and after I had POURED my heart out to him.
FUCKING BOGUS
I immediately deleted anything I had from him. Voicemail, text messages, gmail, EVERYTHING.
I will always treasure the good times that we had together and it hurts that those are over but he is an ASSHOLE for dumping me and thinking that I am annoying for trying to get some sense out of what happened because he refused to tell me.
Everything else I will look into. I will still see a therapist and figure out what I want to do for a career and work on my body image next week so I can schedule work and going to the gym.
ALEX WILSON IS A FUCK-TARD AND IS GOING TO REGRET DUMPING ME AND I HOPE THIS NEW GIRL MELISSA CHOKES ON HIS SMALL DICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not going to lie. REALLY do miss those awesome times when he made me feel special but I realize, even then, it wasn't exactly what I wanted in a relationship. I settled a lot for him, like telling him I didn't need romantic dinners or go on dates. I was willing to drop everything and move to Texas for him. He got mad at ME for making sure that I settled things before dropping everything to move down there. I waited for him. I was patient with him. I will find someone who will work hard to keep me, rather than the other way around. I always had that fear. That if I didn't do the best I could and always please him and appease him, he would leave me. I should never feel like that. I want the guy to work that hard to keep ME.
Couples still bug me. Holding hands, kissing. I deserve that. I WANT that soooooooooooooo bad. I always will. Being single is going to rock, but it can still have its sucky moments.
And I learned the truth about Alex E. Wilson. I feel relieved and I feel redeemed. I had asked his dad whether or not Alex talked about me, wondering if he is missing me as much as I am missing him. All he said about me was that I was ANNOYING trying to call him after he hadn't called me back for 2 weeks after I had poured my heart out to him and that he would call me back.
So he thought that I was being ANNOYING after TWO WEEKS he didn't call and said that he would so we can finally get some closure for this relationship and after I had POURED my heart out to him.
FUCKING BOGUS
I immediately deleted anything I had from him. Voicemail, text messages, gmail, EVERYTHING.
I will always treasure the good times that we had together and it hurts that those are over but he is an ASSHOLE for dumping me and thinking that I am annoying for trying to get some sense out of what happened because he refused to tell me.
Everything else I will look into. I will still see a therapist and figure out what I want to do for a career and work on my body image next week so I can schedule work and going to the gym.
ALEX WILSON IS A FUCK-TARD AND IS GOING TO REGRET DUMPING ME AND I HOPE THIS NEW GIRL MELISSA CHOKES ON HIS SMALL DICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not going to lie. REALLY do miss those awesome times when he made me feel special but I realize, even then, it wasn't exactly what I wanted in a relationship. I settled a lot for him, like telling him I didn't need romantic dinners or go on dates. I was willing to drop everything and move to Texas for him. He got mad at ME for making sure that I settled things before dropping everything to move down there. I waited for him. I was patient with him. I will find someone who will work hard to keep me, rather than the other way around. I always had that fear. That if I didn't do the best I could and always please him and appease him, he would leave me. I should never feel like that. I want the guy to work that hard to keep ME.
Couples still bug me. Holding hands, kissing. I deserve that. I WANT that soooooooooooooo bad. I always will. Being single is going to rock, but it can still have its sucky moments.