[Private] Lonely
I miss Cat and Tro. It hurt when I could feel them making love, but it hurts more now that I cannot. I feel very empty. Cat and I were bonded for two and a half years and I liked being able to feel him and Tro when we bonded with him. I miss having them in my head. I miss Bailey as well. Sometimes I dream about them and remember what it was like to fall asleep in their arms. I want to remember the good things about when we were together, but that makes me feel worse.
I know in my head that this is what had to happen. Cat and Tro were meant to be together. If I had been stronger I would have told Cat to talk to Tro. I knew they loved each other, but I bonded with Cat. It was not right or fair to either of them. Maybe it would be easier if I could stop loving them or wanting to be with them. Knowing it does not work does not make me want to be with them any less.
My internship will be over soon and I will have two weeks before classes start. What am I going to do?
I know in my head that this is what had to happen. Cat and Tro were meant to be together. If I had been stronger I would have told Cat to talk to Tro. I knew they loved each other, but I bonded with Cat. It was not right or fair to either of them. Maybe it would be easier if I could stop loving them or wanting to be with them. Knowing it does not work does not make me want to be with them any less.
My internship will be over soon and I will have two weeks before classes start. What am I going to do?