Jun 10, 2005 19:44
Sometimes being a guy is difficult. I say this because no
matter how hard I try to fight it. I am oblivious to a lot of things. I let
people get away with too much. I've gotten a lot better about this, but
sometimes I can't help but wonder if I am really seeing things the way other
people see them. Then I just went all hypothetical and philosophical on that
shit...
People really only believe what they see (for the most part)
and what they see are actions. We all know that little proverb "action speak
louder than words". So what if by fate you happen to see certain people in
only their bad moments (i.e. pissed off, caught at the bad end of a
personalized joke, attacking someone verbally cause they said something that
offended you...etc.) Then fate had just dictated you a nice, lasting, not so
good image of the kind of person you are.
I could help but think about some of this stuff today. Yeah, that person
wouldn't know the real "you" and prob wouldn't hang around you enough
to figure that out. Technically it shouldn't matter though right? What if there
were a few handful of people or even more that, by some twist of fate, always
(or more times than not) caught you in your worst of hours? Society says that
social relations are important and this is true. If no one likes you then you
will not get far in life. At least, not without a tremendous drive and some
luck. Even if it's only a few people that this may happen in front of, what if
those people happen to dictate (due to personality types) the social groupings
of that circle? Then she/he would have a really hard time making new friends in
that social circle and maybe even others due to a stigma that was brought about
by a few lasting bad impressions. It's
hard to be open-minded sometimes and I think that just about all good-hearted
people make that effort. You don't want
to single someone out just because they don't seem to fit in, or because at
first they seem rigid. Sometimes those
first impressions are so hard to shake even if you've know someone for a
while.
I'm just ranting here. I haven't done this in a while and
this is something that I have been thinking about for a while just how
different social groups and sub-groups interact. I know that some of this stuff
is a little bit out there, but when one extreme exists then there must be an
equal and opposite extreme to balance the equation. So from that you can figure
out all these weird social integrations and exclusions that prob have some
crazy and unorthodox beginnings. Some of which may just very well be a
miscommunication or misunderstanding. A lot of these little bugs can and
sometimes do get sorted out when people open up and try to see things in other
lights. I know that I myself travel in many different circles that actually can
almost be tied into one huge and intricate web. One that connects more people
than I originally thought not more than a few months ago. It
just furthers my faith and my beliefs.
Seeing how everything has a counterpart and everything has a cycle and
there is
no real beginning or ending it's just a circle that connects every one
through
an intricate decimal system drawn about by nature. Anyways enough of my
crazy talk. I haven't updated here in a while. I've got
another poem coming soon too... actually I have two. I'll put those up
later tonight.