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life can be SO fucking random. I love that about it. I would hate living a routine life. It's like Socrates said..."the unexamined life is not worth living." Soc is the MAN. yesterday my boyfriend suprised me and came over because he knew I was upset about his little "pact." but i also surprised HIM because i got my hair cut pretty short...he liked it, though. BACK to the point. He aplogized to me and said that he was going to start treating me better because he doesn't want to lose me. I made dinner for us and he set up a candel-lit table...we played cards, played geo safari world...and he slept over. nothing happened...it was just nice. He even told me he loved me...and I even believed him. Then today I went to NYC with Olga and Danica. We were going to meet up with Jon and his roommate and then go to see Good Vibrations. BUT when we get to the city we realize that Good Vibrations isn't playing. Olga got really upset because she thought the day was ruined. Jon and his roommate were about an hour late...and Danica and I were starting to get annoyed with Olga's negative attitude. But then David called me and said he wanted to meet up for dinner...so at 5 we all met at the Olive Garden...the 6 of us...and had an AMAZING time..just talking. for the first time in a long time i didn't feel like some little high school girl because I was talking to REAL people...I felt mature...and I knew that this is what college will be like and I loved it. Then the guys went there seperate ways and Olga, Danica and I went to Starbucks. We talked a lot and Olga and I both got REALLY close with Danica...she and I have a lot in common especially. while we were talking my boyfriend called me...he sounded really upset so i told him that i'd be home at 10 and asked him to come over. we took the bus home...(olga and i made a deal that if i found her a prom date she'd teach me how to dance :-P) and then he came over. it was so nice...i baked him some blondies because he was sick...and he sat with me while i did my homework. he stayed until 2. somehow we got to talking about each other...and he was telling me all these things he knew about me. all this time i thought he didnt take the time to notice who i was. after all, he never asked me to read a poem or to play the piano for him. not that i want to show off, but i'd want him to know what my passions are. but it turns out he knows a lot about me that other people don't know. he knows my details and i love that. he's been trying really hard to change his ways...and he's been a lot greater to me now. i know it's only been 2 days...but i guess we'll see. and that's what i love. the RANDOMNESS. to be able to say..."we'll see what happens in the future...who knows?" there are some things we should be able to control...like our goals and things we want to accomplish...everything else is left to providence...and that's a damn good thing.