Reissue - Ver3.4
Today, I am confused, unnerved, nervous, worried and somewhat nostalgic.
And I'll assume that someone would like a small explanation to understand why.
I'm confused because I feel better than I have done for a while, although things external to me seem to either be spiraling out of control or outside of my control. I have lost my job through the company making over seven tenths of its employees redundant, I have somewhere along the line lost the feelings and love of my girlfriend, and soon I have to pay for things with no discernible income.
I'm unnerved because I should be worried in a much larger capacity that I am right now. It feels like I'm on holiday, which is what its not, but the idea is still in my head.
I'm nervous because i'd like to branch out, and create a more interesting blog and move out of the rut I'm in. But at the moment, I keep getting stopped by the fact of how to start making it better/more interesting/conceptual/useful.
This leads me onto the worried aspect. I know the future is never written in stone, but generally you have some fallback or idea of the worst case scenario. Problem is that I seem to have no idea what that is now, it has all been stripped from me. Not being in control is always the biggest worry for me, and last time that lead to my depression. Which is a road I hope to never lead me down again.
The majority I hope to say from this is that I have ideas, some good ideas that I want to try. I want to write, and write in some sense professionally. Writing is one of the wishy-washy professions where you have no career path but is born out of emotion and love of the craft. It's the one actual craft where I feel that I can truly do well but have been afraid that it will fall before I even begin.
I'm calling all my fellow Inkhearts, is there anything I should be doing that would further aid myself in the future?
Daniel Martin, signing off.
And I'll assume that someone would like a small explanation to understand why.
I'm confused because I feel better than I have done for a while, although things external to me seem to either be spiraling out of control or outside of my control. I have lost my job through the company making over seven tenths of its employees redundant, I have somewhere along the line lost the feelings and love of my girlfriend, and soon I have to pay for things with no discernible income.
I'm unnerved because I should be worried in a much larger capacity that I am right now. It feels like I'm on holiday, which is what its not, but the idea is still in my head.
I'm nervous because i'd like to branch out, and create a more interesting blog and move out of the rut I'm in. But at the moment, I keep getting stopped by the fact of how to start making it better/more interesting/conceptual/useful.
This leads me onto the worried aspect. I know the future is never written in stone, but generally you have some fallback or idea of the worst case scenario. Problem is that I seem to have no idea what that is now, it has all been stripped from me. Not being in control is always the biggest worry for me, and last time that lead to my depression. Which is a road I hope to never lead me down again.
The majority I hope to say from this is that I have ideas, some good ideas that I want to try. I want to write, and write in some sense professionally. Writing is one of the wishy-washy professions where you have no career path but is born out of emotion and love of the craft. It's the one actual craft where I feel that I can truly do well but have been afraid that it will fall before I even begin.
I'm calling all my fellow Inkhearts, is there anything I should be doing that would further aid myself in the future?
Daniel Martin, signing off.