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I HATE feeling like the worst mom in the world. I see other moms and wonder how in the heck they do it? How can they have a perfect make up and hair? how can their kid stay sited in the shopping cart while mine is throwing a tantrum because he wants to walk. How do they make everything so darn perfect and I am struggling just to get up every day?
I HATE Matt's tantrums, god, they have only gotten worst. Look as a child psychologyst I do know what to do, and it works it is just the having patience what kills me. I mean, try being sleep deprived, because you went to bed late because the stupid dishwasher broke down and there are a ton of dirty dishes, or because it is the only time I have to do laundry.
I am so pissed at Harry right now. I am so mad that we keep having arguments about how to discipline Matt, I do not want to hit him. I agree, a spanking when it is needed is ok, but not all the time or as an answer for anything. He does not hit Matt but we been arguing cause he wants to.
And you know why he wants to? because his mom said so. Arggggg do not get me wrong, I love my mother in law but I despise that every time Harry has to make a decision about Mat t he calls his mom and is unable to do it himself. I get soooo mad ....really, we are sometimes in a middle of a conversation and he just gets up picks the phone and calls his mom to talk about what he should do.
More than anything I am jelous, he talks to her about everything and he rarely talks to me. We just had an argument about this just now. I am mad but I managed to control myself and said everything very rationally, so we did not had a fight...it is just so darn complicated.
I can not do this.
I can not be a mom, a maid, a wife...I can not be anything for anyone right now.
I HATE Matt's tantrums, god, they have only gotten worst. Look as a child psychologyst I do know what to do, and it works it is just the having patience what kills me. I mean, try being sleep deprived, because you went to bed late because the stupid dishwasher broke down and there are a ton of dirty dishes, or because it is the only time I have to do laundry.
I am so pissed at Harry right now. I am so mad that we keep having arguments about how to discipline Matt, I do not want to hit him. I agree, a spanking when it is needed is ok, but not all the time or as an answer for anything. He does not hit Matt but we been arguing cause he wants to.
And you know why he wants to? because his mom said so. Arggggg do not get me wrong, I love my mother in law but I despise that every time Harry has to make a decision about Mat t he calls his mom and is unable to do it himself. I get soooo mad ....really, we are sometimes in a middle of a conversation and he just gets up picks the phone and calls his mom to talk about what he should do.
More than anything I am jelous, he talks to her about everything and he rarely talks to me. We just had an argument about this just now. I am mad but I managed to control myself and said everything very rationally, so we did not had a fight...it is just so darn complicated.
I can not do this.
I can not be a mom, a maid, a wife...I can not be anything for anyone right now.