a recent story of regret
she came over dressed in a red hoodie sweater, and jeans.
hair back just so its out of her face, not out of plain view.
she looks up at me and tells me that she's missed me, and that we havent seen each other in "like forever."
she walks in the door and into my arms.
i'm vague but happy with her, leaving her not in any suspicion of my depression over her, or the lack of her.
we go and rent the bourne supremecy from the blockbuster then head back to the crib...my crib.
i purposfully let her sit down first as to make sure that no "us" notions would be flying.
this is especially because i know that she knows how i feel about her, and distance myself from her durring times of this tells her that i'm not yet over her, and vulnerable to any flirting or acts like that.....i hope she caught on.
what happened next has me depressed right now, but it could be genuine and happy later.
she started inching closer and closer to me, i started to let the dogs out on a momentary basis as to move around from sitting down for good.
at that time she got into physical contact with me, holding onto my arms, head resting on my lap.
later on she moved closer up then my arm went around her, and laid across her stomach and grasping her left arm. she would always put her hands ontop of mine.
slowly carressing the back of my hand...
and i likewise to her arm, stomach, and hair (on occasion)
she looked up at me on occasion, but i was entranced in the movie....actually that's a lie, i was avoiding looking her in the eyes because then i knew i would be done for if i did.
she has the most gorgeous eyes on the face of the plannet...i doubt that god even has that beautiful eyes.
4.30 rolled around, which mean that she had to start heading to work.
she knew that i was reluctant in letting her leave.
i know that she didnt want to go to.
when she got up from the couch, she held onto my hand expecting me to push her back onto the couch and stop her from leaving...
i didnt....
she fell on her own so i fell next to her and we were really really close for three whole minutes.
no talking, no movement
just her and me, looking into each other's eyes.
she left after that.
i should have kissed her.
hair back just so its out of her face, not out of plain view.
she looks up at me and tells me that she's missed me, and that we havent seen each other in "like forever."
she walks in the door and into my arms.
i'm vague but happy with her, leaving her not in any suspicion of my depression over her, or the lack of her.
we go and rent the bourne supremecy from the blockbuster then head back to the crib...my crib.
i purposfully let her sit down first as to make sure that no "us" notions would be flying.
this is especially because i know that she knows how i feel about her, and distance myself from her durring times of this tells her that i'm not yet over her, and vulnerable to any flirting or acts like that.....i hope she caught on.
what happened next has me depressed right now, but it could be genuine and happy later.
she started inching closer and closer to me, i started to let the dogs out on a momentary basis as to move around from sitting down for good.
at that time she got into physical contact with me, holding onto my arms, head resting on my lap.
later on she moved closer up then my arm went around her, and laid across her stomach and grasping her left arm. she would always put her hands ontop of mine.
slowly carressing the back of my hand...
and i likewise to her arm, stomach, and hair (on occasion)
she looked up at me on occasion, but i was entranced in the movie....actually that's a lie, i was avoiding looking her in the eyes because then i knew i would be done for if i did.
she has the most gorgeous eyes on the face of the plannet...i doubt that god even has that beautiful eyes.
4.30 rolled around, which mean that she had to start heading to work.
she knew that i was reluctant in letting her leave.
i know that she didnt want to go to.
when she got up from the couch, she held onto my hand expecting me to push her back onto the couch and stop her from leaving...
i didnt....
she fell on her own so i fell next to her and we were really really close for three whole minutes.
no talking, no movement
just her and me, looking into each other's eyes.
she left after that.
i should have kissed her.