dude...dont feel like i'm doing that at all....recent updates on the chicago thing are in order for saying....we're postponing the move for another year...relax on that one.
when we go its because i need to find a different setting in which i'm in now to hence forth grow on my own path. its something i need to do for me. people who "need" me around here are not willing to let me go and gain their own independence.
i'm gonna break and sound like an ass here....but i think that a lot of people not only expect my kindness out of me at all times, and they unknowingly use me for my generosity, plus i'm the moral support for tons, and i have so much responsibillity...now i'm feeling like the momma bird that pushes the kids out to teach them to fly....its time for me to do my job and teach, teach people to be independent from me. i'm not always going to be remembered in peoples lives, so what. the point is that i am here physically, but more importantly: morally, emotionally, comically, phillisophically, spiritually, and all other kinds of "ally's." but all that's being removed is my phisical presence. you're not here right now in columbus, and sure things are changing here, with or without you...but you're in a new setting now testing out different/new parts of jeremy's life...i'm simply doing the same thing...just....without school
i'm working on saving enough money to travel everywhere i need to go to see the people i need to see before i DO leave...dont count yourself out of that...
i've talked about the "love" in my family on many entries before so i'm not going to even dignify myself with a response to that. (super troopers-farva)
you know...i kinda lost track of where i'm going with this, so i'm just going to stop...plus this conversation shouldnt be happening via online journalling.
when we go its because i need to find a different setting in which i'm in now to hence forth grow on my own path. its something i need to do for me. people who "need" me around here are not willing to let me go and gain their own independence.
i'm gonna break and sound like an ass here....but i think that a lot of people not only expect my kindness out of me at all times, and they unknowingly use me for my generosity, plus i'm the moral support for tons, and i have so much responsibillity...now i'm feeling like the momma bird that pushes the kids out to teach them to fly....its time for me to do my job and teach, teach people to be independent from me. i'm not always going to be remembered in peoples lives, so what. the point is that i am here physically, but more importantly: morally, emotionally, comically, phillisophically, spiritually, and all other kinds of "ally's." but all that's being removed is my phisical presence.
you're not here right now in columbus, and sure things are changing here, with or without you...but you're in a new setting now testing out different/new parts of jeremy's life...i'm simply doing the same thing...just....without school
i'm working on saving enough money to travel everywhere i need to go to see the people i need to see before i DO leave...dont count yourself out of that...
i've talked about the "love" in my family on many entries before so i'm not going to even dignify myself with a response to that. (super troopers-farva)
you know...i kinda lost track of where i'm going with this, so i'm just going to stop...plus this conversation shouldnt be happening via online journalling.
so i'm out for now...
peace
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