Enough
Emailed my rheumatologist (at the prodding of a friend, thank you <3) and reported my symptoms and asked for his advice. Given that it's the holiday, I am not sure if I'll hear back from him today but I decided overnight that after this morning I will take myself off it and see if there's improvement. I did not want to start it until I am done with work today because work is tough enough without the pain kicking in.
I literally lay there crying last night thinking about doing this, and knowing what kind of pain is going to come flying back at me once the drug induced "wall", which is keeping much of it out right now, drops. And a huge part of me HATES feeling so dependant on DRUGS, which have screwed me up so much in the past. But honestly, to wake up, and before my eyes are even open, to know that BREATHING hurts my body...yah. Nevermind.
I know it's awful, but sometimes I wish that some people around me that need to be understanding (and aren't) could experience 10 mins of this. Just TEN MINS. Because I don't know that you can understand it without feeling it? I mean, they should try, and sometimes they do, but it's easy to forget when you're not the one who is hobbling around trying not to bump into anything because it will feel like smacking a giant bruise.
/sigh
Enough. I was just told we're only working till 3, which is good because I am going to get a pelvic ultrasound at 3:30 to see what's up with the rest of my body that is deciding to mutiny against the lack of attention. I have to drink 48 oz of water starting at 2:30 and hold it until after the ultrasound. LOL - sounds tough, but I did it pregnant, and I may be fatter now but my bladder is not subletting space to any baby this time, should be easy. =) Weird to think it's been 14 years since I had one of these.
Kelsey started a Facebook group called "Tyler Trulson needs a haircut" - which he does, but she's badgering him about it...but he agreed that when the group hits 60 people, he will get it cut. It hit 61 today. =) Guess we're hitting the haircutting place later.
Off to work on Paid Search, and get through the day. Happy Thanksgiving everyone.
I literally lay there crying last night thinking about doing this, and knowing what kind of pain is going to come flying back at me once the drug induced "wall", which is keeping much of it out right now, drops. And a huge part of me HATES feeling so dependant on DRUGS, which have screwed me up so much in the past. But honestly, to wake up, and before my eyes are even open, to know that BREATHING hurts my body...yah. Nevermind.
I know it's awful, but sometimes I wish that some people around me that need to be understanding (and aren't) could experience 10 mins of this. Just TEN MINS. Because I don't know that you can understand it without feeling it? I mean, they should try, and sometimes they do, but it's easy to forget when you're not the one who is hobbling around trying not to bump into anything because it will feel like smacking a giant bruise.
/sigh
Enough. I was just told we're only working till 3, which is good because I am going to get a pelvic ultrasound at 3:30 to see what's up with the rest of my body that is deciding to mutiny against the lack of attention. I have to drink 48 oz of water starting at 2:30 and hold it until after the ultrasound. LOL - sounds tough, but I did it pregnant, and I may be fatter now but my bladder is not subletting space to any baby this time, should be easy. =) Weird to think it's been 14 years since I had one of these.
Kelsey started a Facebook group called "Tyler Trulson needs a haircut" - which he does, but she's badgering him about it...but he agreed that when the group hits 60 people, he will get it cut. It hit 61 today. =) Guess we're hitting the haircutting place later.
Off to work on Paid Search, and get through the day. Happy Thanksgiving everyone.