I am so incredibly jealous and sad.
http://www.geekbunny.com/sujun/ding.html - her and her husband worked hard to do this at the exact same time. I can't imagine anything more fun in a game like this than that. I thought I'd share it with someone, and was even more sure when I could play more and was gaining levels to match - ALMOST the same level...just a little more... You'd think after years of the same old thing in different games I'd know better. You'd also think that at 40 I'd not let a stupid game hurt me the way it does so much. I really need to quit it, I'm not a kid anymore, and I definitely don't fit in on a game like this.
Brought my stationary bike in yesterday afternoon, and did what my PT guy said, 5 mins with no resistance. I'm so out of shape that even that had me panting, I disgust myself. It went ok for the first 3 mins, then it started to hurt, so I stopped like he said, and stretched and iced, thinking maybe I can start to whittle away at this bag of lumps my ass has become - I saw myself in a full length mirror the other day and honestly was taken aback at how bad it is now, and how I have fooled myself into thinking it's not. I'm ten pounds from 200, what the HELL am I doing thinking I look good or attractive or anyone could stand to touch me or see me? So I planned on starting a regular schedule of this, because it's all well and good to preach at others about getting off their asses, but what have I done?
Yeah, well that was before the foot cramping kicked in last night. All night. Even with the last of my meds to stop cramping, it would kick in, my toes would curl under and I would jump out of bed trying to find cold floor to help it stop. The only thing I did different was the stupid bike. I mean, I cramped bad when pregnant with both kids, but this was vicious enough to work THROUGH the meds designed to stop it, I thought my toes would snap off. =( So why would I do this again? Why even bother? Who honestly cares what I look like? My kids? No. Me? Yeah right. Do it to lower my cholesterol? Like that'll work anyhow, and why bother trying to live longer, so I can gain MORE weight and live through MORE pain? Hah. Nice fucking try, but you aren't fooling me anymore.
T - I got "Uglies", and am going to read it next, after I finish "Early Bird". Did C get it yet? If not I can send it on after.
Brought my stationary bike in yesterday afternoon, and did what my PT guy said, 5 mins with no resistance. I'm so out of shape that even that had me panting, I disgust myself. It went ok for the first 3 mins, then it started to hurt, so I stopped like he said, and stretched and iced, thinking maybe I can start to whittle away at this bag of lumps my ass has become - I saw myself in a full length mirror the other day and honestly was taken aback at how bad it is now, and how I have fooled myself into thinking it's not. I'm ten pounds from 200, what the HELL am I doing thinking I look good or attractive or anyone could stand to touch me or see me? So I planned on starting a regular schedule of this, because it's all well and good to preach at others about getting off their asses, but what have I done?
Yeah, well that was before the foot cramping kicked in last night. All night. Even with the last of my meds to stop cramping, it would kick in, my toes would curl under and I would jump out of bed trying to find cold floor to help it stop. The only thing I did different was the stupid bike. I mean, I cramped bad when pregnant with both kids, but this was vicious enough to work THROUGH the meds designed to stop it, I thought my toes would snap off. =( So why would I do this again? Why even bother? Who honestly cares what I look like? My kids? No. Me? Yeah right. Do it to lower my cholesterol? Like that'll work anyhow, and why bother trying to live longer, so I can gain MORE weight and live through MORE pain? Hah. Nice fucking try, but you aren't fooling me anymore.
T - I got "Uglies", and am going to read it next, after I finish "Early Bird". Did C get it yet? If not I can send it on after.