Songs are powerful (and fuck grammar)
"Look, if you had, one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everythin''' you ever wanted
In one moment
Would you capture it, or just let it slip?
yo! .......
......You'd better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you'd better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime, yo .......
...... You can do anythin' you set your mind to, man "
Parts from Eminem's song "Lose yourself". I don't recall if I have mentioned it on here but for a while now I've wanted to go to poker/blackjack school and learn to be a card dealer. Basically every dealer I talk to at the casino says to go for it because they make crazy money in tips. Ever since I found out how much they can make and thought about it a little bit, I've really wanted to pursue it.
I haven't had a chance to do that as of yet which saddens me a bit. I know the list of dealers who are waiting for a spot, a shot, to open up is long and growing every day but I don't care about that. If it took me 2 years of waiting to finally become a dealer it would be worth it. Its also one of the only path in front of me that I can see that will lead to financial stability and financial gain. Don't get me wrong, I'm getting by now but thats all I'm doing. I can't hardly buy things I want to buy (Wii, new computer, laptop, random gifts, new wardrobe, anime, swords, etc) with the money I have now. I'm constantly in a saving mode incase something goes wrong.
Val has a new job and that will help me have more wiggle room but I won't be satisfied until my account is back to where it used to be before I moved.. which won't happen quick enough for my tastes from what I can calculate.
That song really seems to sum up my feelings on the dealer thing. I feel it is my one shot and I feel I would be a fool not to go for that golden ring and grab on tight with both hands. I don't know what I wanted this blog to reflect except for my will/desire to change the path I'm on for the positive. Shawn is gonna be a dispatcher making like $14 an hour and while I'm sure I could attempt to follow that path, I don't think I would enjoy it in the slightest.
Can't go back to being in the medical field. They won't pay me 10 an hour to start, hell they won't even look at me twice because I don't want to be a secretary or a collections whore and worse yet my certificate is a year or two out of date now. I could catch it up but all the jobs want 1-2 years experience and all I am to them is an electronic app. So thats dead. Medical training was a waste of my time and my money but it was a path. Now the only path is dealer. Working two jobs is not an option or the way I want my life to be.
I don't want to be a life insurance salesman, going through people I know to make mad cash, I don't want to be a civil engineer or even try to go that route because I will KILL someone before I ever make it through the english portion of the "general ed" due to the frustration and pure "FUCK this" attitute I will have in trying to complete english. I absolutely and completely LOATHE paper writing.
I really envy people who know what they want to do with their lives because I sure wish I knew what I wanted to do with mine. My attitute toward being a dealer is that I WILL become a dealer. If I want it bad enough and I really do, I will do it. I will ace (haha) the schooling and wait my time til a spot opens and BOOM, I'll be in. So what if one of my bosses couldn't pass the audition? He's not me, he obviously didn't want it bad enough. Even if I fail the first audition, you can damn well be sure I'll be back again and again and again. I won't lose. About the only damn thing I have any true resolve toward doing these days is this. Learning japanese? I try and I try but I usually slack off. Fitness? That requires energy.. Hell.. I've even thought about taking out a loan to pay the $1500 cost of the classes assuming they won't work out something that works for me. Thats who serious I am about this. Hell I could throw the cost on my credit card if I had to... sure the 20% apr would suck but oh well. (won't likely do this)
END because I done.
To seize everythin''' you ever wanted
In one moment
Would you capture it, or just let it slip?
yo! .......
......You'd better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you'd better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime, yo .......
...... You can do anythin' you set your mind to, man "
Parts from Eminem's song "Lose yourself". I don't recall if I have mentioned it on here but for a while now I've wanted to go to poker/blackjack school and learn to be a card dealer. Basically every dealer I talk to at the casino says to go for it because they make crazy money in tips. Ever since I found out how much they can make and thought about it a little bit, I've really wanted to pursue it.
I haven't had a chance to do that as of yet which saddens me a bit. I know the list of dealers who are waiting for a spot, a shot, to open up is long and growing every day but I don't care about that. If it took me 2 years of waiting to finally become a dealer it would be worth it. Its also one of the only path in front of me that I can see that will lead to financial stability and financial gain. Don't get me wrong, I'm getting by now but thats all I'm doing. I can't hardly buy things I want to buy (Wii, new computer, laptop, random gifts, new wardrobe, anime, swords, etc) with the money I have now. I'm constantly in a saving mode incase something goes wrong.
Val has a new job and that will help me have more wiggle room but I won't be satisfied until my account is back to where it used to be before I moved.. which won't happen quick enough for my tastes from what I can calculate.
That song really seems to sum up my feelings on the dealer thing. I feel it is my one shot and I feel I would be a fool not to go for that golden ring and grab on tight with both hands. I don't know what I wanted this blog to reflect except for my will/desire to change the path I'm on for the positive. Shawn is gonna be a dispatcher making like $14 an hour and while I'm sure I could attempt to follow that path, I don't think I would enjoy it in the slightest.
Can't go back to being in the medical field. They won't pay me 10 an hour to start, hell they won't even look at me twice because I don't want to be a secretary or a collections whore and worse yet my certificate is a year or two out of date now. I could catch it up but all the jobs want 1-2 years experience and all I am to them is an electronic app. So thats dead. Medical training was a waste of my time and my money but it was a path. Now the only path is dealer. Working two jobs is not an option or the way I want my life to be.
I don't want to be a life insurance salesman, going through people I know to make mad cash, I don't want to be a civil engineer or even try to go that route because I will KILL someone before I ever make it through the english portion of the "general ed" due to the frustration and pure "FUCK this" attitute I will have in trying to complete english. I absolutely and completely LOATHE paper writing.
I really envy people who know what they want to do with their lives because I sure wish I knew what I wanted to do with mine. My attitute toward being a dealer is that I WILL become a dealer. If I want it bad enough and I really do, I will do it. I will ace (haha) the schooling and wait my time til a spot opens and BOOM, I'll be in. So what if one of my bosses couldn't pass the audition? He's not me, he obviously didn't want it bad enough. Even if I fail the first audition, you can damn well be sure I'll be back again and again and again. I won't lose. About the only damn thing I have any true resolve toward doing these days is this. Learning japanese? I try and I try but I usually slack off. Fitness? That requires energy.. Hell.. I've even thought about taking out a loan to pay the $1500 cost of the classes assuming they won't work out something that works for me. Thats who serious I am about this. Hell I could throw the cost on my credit card if I had to... sure the 20% apr would suck but oh well. (won't likely do this)
END because I done.