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so these last few days, i have spent my time trying to work myself threw one problem. in all this time i have spent thinking about it, i often found it impossible, and my mind wandered. taking into account how much time i have spent thinking thats alot of time for my mind to wander. an in this time i realised 2 things, that seem to be tied to each other.
I have no real friends. no body whos willing to just sit and listen to me rant, who trusts me to sit and listen to them rant, who would come over just to hang out, who respects me for ALL of who i am, not just the part of me that can help them. what im going to get now, is a whole bunch of people who will comment, for probably the first time (Or close to it) saying "im your friend, really" and then they will simply dissapear agian.
this leads into my second point. no one invites me to things because they want me there, or they enjoy my company. they invite me because i have something they want. its gotten to the point that when gaming, im there to help people make charecters, and provide books. and they cant very well call and say "So and so needs a character, i need a DMG, can you swing that stuff by and go on your way?" LAN Parties, people dont want me, they want the Switch, The Cables, and the Tech Support.
im sick of all this. if you think im complaining, sit back for a second and think about it. you will eaither figure out im right, or your very much delusional, which i honestly wouldnt doubt.
I have no real friends. no body whos willing to just sit and listen to me rant, who trusts me to sit and listen to them rant, who would come over just to hang out, who respects me for ALL of who i am, not just the part of me that can help them. what im going to get now, is a whole bunch of people who will comment, for probably the first time (Or close to it) saying "im your friend, really" and then they will simply dissapear agian.
this leads into my second point. no one invites me to things because they want me there, or they enjoy my company. they invite me because i have something they want. its gotten to the point that when gaming, im there to help people make charecters, and provide books. and they cant very well call and say "So and so needs a character, i need a DMG, can you swing that stuff by and go on your way?" LAN Parties, people dont want me, they want the Switch, The Cables, and the Tech Support.
im sick of all this. if you think im complaining, sit back for a second and think about it. you will eaither figure out im right, or your very much delusional, which i honestly wouldnt doubt.