I have no clue
I don't really know what to write about. I'm sitting here drinking orange soda and trying to figure out how to fix my grill. Yesterday my mom's boyfriend gave me this huge smoker and I've been smoking pork all night. It came out delicious! One of the problems I have with smoking meat is if you slow smoke pork, the outside gets pink again. It's pretty misleading, so you have to go by the color in the inside (or buy a meat thermometer =B)
Last night my girlfriend called an told me I had to rent a tux. I asked her why and she said "Because you're going to homecomming with me!" I reminded her that I have hardcore anxiety and I don't go to the shrink until October 9th. Both of us are really sad about this, I would have loved to go. This anxiety crap is getting to be a real pain in the ass. My mom is trying to force me to get a job, but I know I can't handle it. She says she knows tons of people who are going through the same shit I am and says that the best thing to do is to force myself to work. I know for a fact that this isn't true, because every time I go out and feel like shit, when I come back I feel worse about myself. I don't know why I even try. I tried to find a job where I can work at home and they're ALL scams. All I can do now is waste a few more months. I wasted the past year and a half.
Last night my girlfriend called an told me I had to rent a tux. I asked her why and she said "Because you're going to homecomming with me!" I reminded her that I have hardcore anxiety and I don't go to the shrink until October 9th. Both of us are really sad about this, I would have loved to go. This anxiety crap is getting to be a real pain in the ass. My mom is trying to force me to get a job, but I know I can't handle it. She says she knows tons of people who are going through the same shit I am and says that the best thing to do is to force myself to work. I know for a fact that this isn't true, because every time I go out and feel like shit, when I come back I feel worse about myself. I don't know why I even try. I tried to find a job where I can work at home and they're ALL scams. All I can do now is waste a few more months. I wasted the past year and a half.