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nathan and i had an awesome day today, with his mom and grandma none the less. i'm really confused about the future as well as uncertain. i'm not sure what or who to trust anymore. barbara is becoming more and more like my mom everyday and even nate admitted it. *sighs* so yeah...nathan has decided that after my lease is up he is moving back in with his mom with or without me. i really think that barbara is not going to let me stay there and her stupid little "i don't like you sleeping together in the same bed" excuse isn't gonna work. when she was living at the other house she would ask us and we would say yes we were sleeping and she would never seperate us. we've been living together for almost a year now. get the fuck over it.
not being able to fall asleep next to nathan is really going to suck. i don't like it at all. so i'm gonna get my apartment as soon as possible. if he comes with me fine, if not, then he will not be able to use it as a safe haven to get away from barbara. he will stay there and deal with her until he is ready to move back in. i'm puttin my foot down. if he decides to live there again permanently then i will not listen to him bitch about barbara. i'm putting my foot down.
honestly....scared of the future for the first time in my life......oh well its all the same shit on a different day anyway.
not being able to fall asleep next to nathan is really going to suck. i don't like it at all. so i'm gonna get my apartment as soon as possible. if he comes with me fine, if not, then he will not be able to use it as a safe haven to get away from barbara. he will stay there and deal with her until he is ready to move back in. i'm puttin my foot down. if he decides to live there again permanently then i will not listen to him bitch about barbara. i'm putting my foot down.
honestly....scared of the future for the first time in my life......oh well its all the same shit on a different day anyway.